abunai

"Oh to suck the marrow out of life, so that I will not come to death and find that I had not lived." H.D.T. (This may not be exact, it is from memory).
Just watched Dead Poet Society again. Got me thinking about life. I identify with Niwanda. Ready to just full force into art and not look back. I can't bite my tongue, and there is a certian point where practicality goes out the window.
All in all I remember being a little kid and seeing people take control of their lives, their destiny, for better or for worse, being true to themself. I remember wondering if I could ever be that brave. Bravery was always very important to me.
There have been times that I look in the mirror and Im so proud of myself. I feel that I have become one of those free thinking people, like Niwanda.
There are also times where I feel dragged down by time and responsibility. School takes up so much of my life I don't have alot of time for art. And the cold makes it hard for me to make outfits, one of my favorite arts to this day, cuz most of the stuff I like to make is kinna... skimpy, at least the female stuff. As for the male stuff, its going to cost some money for me to get materials to pass. Money I don't have.
I guess I just feel the need to do something crazy.
Ideas...ideas...ideas...

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~Abunai