Ug, I haven't been on here for way too long. Been working on short stories, celebrating New Years, and was a bit under the weather for a few days. But here I am, now that I have writers block lol. I was going back in my xanga reading old stuff. I used to write some great streams of consciousness. I really should get back into that. Mostly its been poetry lately, and one of the stories I wrote over the weekend. I think I'll post the other one thats finished too, but Im goiving it time to sink in cuz its about child abuse and neglectful school officials, so people should take time and digest it. Speaking of school, has anyone (like the one person who reads this LOL) seen Sissy Frenchfry? If u haven't go find it somehow *now*, it is the most aweseom short film ever! Oh my Goddess, that school is paradise. If school was like that Id never want to leave.I only have 1 complaint: y no women on the football team or guys cheerleading? They covered just about everything else. If school was like that (and I didnt need college to get away from my parents) I wouldn'tve been in such a rush to get out of it. *Sigh* oh well. Someday... Maybe I'll open my own school, dream big, right? Anyway u know whats really funny, going back to that story I wrote, Im talking about my past self, my old name, that person being dead. And I just realized after I wrote it that I had this premonition when I was younger that I would never make it to 20. I mean considering what I was living in, it might've been more common sense, but it felt like more than that. It wasn't a morbid thot or anythign either, I always did believe in reincarnation, it was more like Id be going to a better place, closer to death in tarrot than death as most people precieve it. And now Im thinking, she didn't make it to 20, that person I used to be. She had to die for the person I am now to exist. Once I legally change my name and declare one of my friends my legal next of kin, it will be the birth of a whole new person. The possibilities seem endless, like a clean slate. For a while I was wondering if I was on the right path. I was getting caught up in school and the system and dragged down by Albany. But getting my priorities straight (straight huh? Im clearly a 90 degree angle!) was all I needed and now I have no doubt. Its weird, when u seen the signs they don't make sense til the exact moment theyre suposed to. Its like a subliminal message u dont even notice affecting u til u see the triger and u feel compelled to carry out the end of the message. Well I see the sign, so I feel compelled to be at ease. Thank the Goddess for signs like this tho, theyve gotten me thru some pretty rough times. I spose Im in a religious mood today. *Shrugs* In that case, Blessed Be! 