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abunai

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Wednesday Dec 27, 2006

Dec 27, 2006
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Wow, u know what, ever since I wrote that last blog I have been thinking about those 2 "closets". Its really funny cuz Im all like about to come out hard core like everywhere and then today I read my horoscope, which I dont do that often, but Im glad I did cuz it pretty much boils down to "girl, slow ur damn roll. " Lol. This is definately typical me, I either jump in with both feet or not at all. Why can't I ever test the damn water first? At least no one can say I do shit half assed! But I think I'll listen, generally I find ignoring stuff like that turns out badly. So baby steps... But now I want to explore y only seem to leap if I don't look. Sometimes u need to have faith and guts to just blindly go for soemthing. But other times it can be disastrous. Its funny cuz I generally dont have alot of faith in things, even, when I jump blindly. Or rather, I don't have faith in others. I have faith in myself, if anything Im over confident, not under confident. Hmm... that would seem to imply that when I take a big risk like coming out to poeple its about me and not the other people. Which makes sense, its not logical to care about the opinions of others. So once Ive decided that an action is ok to take, it moves from a completely private thot to a completely open action. There is no middle ground with me. The question is, should there be? Well I have some problems with out-ness, for example, if I want to keep a job I really need to learn to keep my mouth shut sometimes... But its funny cuz one of my first xangas I ever wrote I talked about Isben's A Doll House. Theres a marxist interpretation of it that I read in AP English and it holds that one cannot ignore their finacial situation for the greater good. Ironically only a few days after swearing that I would most definately ignore my finacial situation I had to decide whether or not to tell my manager (I worked in a toy store) I was doing the day of silence. I am proud to say I did the day of silence at work. In fact last year when I worked at a TA for a public school 6th grade I did the day of silence and was fired for it (even tho my teacher said I could... grrr much). But what good is fighting the system if u dont survive. Oh what a fine line to walk. But i think I have my answer, There need only be the smallest middle ground of bare survival. Otherwise loud and proud is the only moral way to be. smile

~Abunai
remuemenage:
loud and proud - that seems to be your style

I like it

tell me about these days of silence - it seems like an interesting form of political expression

questions questions

what school do you go to in these parts: RPI .... I'm just guessing

I'm currently working on a Bachelor's degree in Classical Language at Suny Albany and soon to be completing my Bachelor's in Mechanical Engineering at RPI

curiouser and curiouser am I about you
Dec 30, 2006
abunai:
Thanks.

The day of silence is for LGBT rights. U try to go the whole day without talking and when people talk to u u give them these cards that explain what ur doing. The idea is that ur prepresenting all the voices that have been silenced by homophobia. It really works best if u do it at a job where u deal with lots of different people all day, like when I was working at that toy store.

Are there any other ivy league schools around here?

Classical language and MechE interesting combo. What drew u to those majors?

Ask away, can't always promise I'll answer, but like u said, loud and proud tends to be my style. smile
Jan 1, 2007

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