Starting something is always hard for me-- doubly so with blog posts. How do I begin to describe my day or my thoughts in a way that makes sense and wont make me seem like a complete lunatic.
(frankly, I am not sure that is possible...)
I'm just going to start somewhere and hope it makes sense =)
I've been writing so much in the last two weeks that my brain feels like it is going to give out on me. I write for a living (well, somewhat of a living) but I have been working on a book for my sister. I normally write short stories or flash fiction so the idea of writing something lengthy is kind of terrifying.
But, the writing keeps the crazy away. It helps to focus my mind, keep it from thinking thoughts that are not helpful. I'm not going to go into a sob story here or spill my guys but it's been a rough year in the relationship department and an even rougher week. I need to write to keep my head on straight and to just be chill for a while. Its nice, or so I think.
Plus, living out in the boons with nothing to do kind of has its drawbacks-- I miss being able to go do things or see people. Living without a car makes that currently impossible where I live. I've been thinking about moving to Seattle but, who knows? Life is crazy and I could end up anywhere..
It's not all bad, really. My pessimistic side wants to scream that life fucking sucks, and right now it does a bit, but I still have a lot to be thankful for. Plus the "life fucking sucks right now" thing is what made me want to become a member of SG.
So...that means that life fucking rocks right now.
I can dig it.
(frankly, I am not sure that is possible...)
I'm just going to start somewhere and hope it makes sense =)
I've been writing so much in the last two weeks that my brain feels like it is going to give out on me. I write for a living (well, somewhat of a living) but I have been working on a book for my sister. I normally write short stories or flash fiction so the idea of writing something lengthy is kind of terrifying.
But, the writing keeps the crazy away. It helps to focus my mind, keep it from thinking thoughts that are not helpful. I'm not going to go into a sob story here or spill my guys but it's been a rough year in the relationship department and an even rougher week. I need to write to keep my head on straight and to just be chill for a while. Its nice, or so I think.
Plus, living out in the boons with nothing to do kind of has its drawbacks-- I miss being able to go do things or see people. Living without a car makes that currently impossible where I live. I've been thinking about moving to Seattle but, who knows? Life is crazy and I could end up anywhere..
It's not all bad, really. My pessimistic side wants to scream that life fucking sucks, and right now it does a bit, but I still have a lot to be thankful for. Plus the "life fucking sucks right now" thing is what made me want to become a member of SG.
So...that means that life fucking rocks right now.
I can dig it.
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absentbree:
Sometimes you just have to look beyond the shit to see how blessed you really are. =) Trying to do that anyway..haha
driftwood14:
I feel you there, I have a pessemistic optimist view on life. Destruction leads to some form of creation. Sounds like you're finding that creation in writing. Keep it up.