absconding_

So last night I thought it would be a good idea to drink two 40s of old E and call my ex at 4 am, crying and begging him to walk over to my house in the rain so I could see him.Fuck.No more booze for a while.I just kept telling my self"Oh,it's okay if you get wasted every night.You just lost the love of your life.You need to sedate your pain!" but this is too much.I make bad,bad decisions when I drink.And I'm sick of being hung over.I need to do detox.Get my life together.................fucking devil booze.