The funny thing about love is how it affects each of us differently! Everyone who loses love, tries to determine the quantity or assess the quality, of it! Comparisons are often made to poems, songs, stories or other "scientific" facts about love. The truth is though, that love does not make or break us, but rather we make or break it.
I have come to realize that a person can fall in or out of love, that they can choose how much to love, and they can also choose how to love. People often separate the love of a family member from the love of a pet, item, or significant other. I believe all of these feelings are the same but adapted to meet the need and the situation.
Because one has such a choice when it comes to love but often does not know this fact, it is easy to see how confusing the feeling can be. Do I love? Is it "true" love, "puppy" love? Do I love him/her as a brother/sister or as my soul mate? Each person defines love their own way, and shows love their own way... it is when the feelings, forms, and displays of this emotion compliment and even heighten those of another, that we have a deep connection that can bond two people in their lives.
I loved and was loved, but she fell out of love.... I tried again, love stronger than before, but our love could not be connected well enough for US to connect.... a third time and unfortunately no charm as she has since pointed out that the love, however seemingly endless, was only from my side. But this does not mean that my love for any of these girls is gone, there is no end to love as it is what carries our spirits and gives us hope for the future. Simply, my love has been adapted, it has become a more secondary love, allowing me to be able to love more prominently when my complimentary love arrives.
So I put forth that through hard times, cruel words, mean actions, and the pain of believing in lost love.... my heart beats steadily still and is ready to seek out its companion once again. Whether I revisit a past love or find a new one, two truths exist; I wish the best to all the girls I've loved before, and I will never stop searching for a love that is meant for me.
I hope that those whom love me as a friend or family member.... or even those who may love me more but refuse to accept it.... can take solace in the fact that I am no longer hurting, that I have embraced my feelings, and I am using them to strengthen myself.
Good Day All!!