I just want to foget everything this hurts so bad. I feel like I am going to vomit more then half of the day and I feel like my heart is gone. I just want to be able to be myself without the fear of rejection. I want everything to be fine but I know that it isnt going to be. I just dont know what to do anymore 
i'm sorry.
i don't know your situation but things will get better soon. they usually do. even if it has to suck for awhile...