I'm so uber excited about the Pens in the playoffs. I've even more uber excited that I HAVE FUCKING PLAY OFF TICKETS!!! Oh yea.. I'll be paying on them for awhile but I dont even friggin care! I was at the last game of the season that was amazing! And now I get to see them again! WOO!! I can't wait to feel the energy in Mellon Arena. If you have never been to a Pens game at home, I suggest you go!! It's amazing. Simply Amazing!
On other notes..
The love of my life has found his asian women. And she has a british accent. FUCK! He hasn't really spoken to her all that much yet, she just started working with him. But alas, if I ever has even the slimmest of hope in my future it is surely gone now. I am attemping to "talk" to this one guy. He's a nice guy and man can he kiss. And oh those eyes. But I'm afraid because A.) I dont want to get hurt. B.) I dont want to hurt anyone. and C.) I know he has cheated on other girls.
Let me confess a little something here. I have not had sex in 3 and a half years. SInce October 2004. That is a long damn time. I just can't have sex with anyone. I have to be serious about it. I dont know. I'm just like that. I swear I am not prude. I freaking love sex.. but still think that it should be special. So that brings me to this guy I am talking to. I know he wouldn't have a problem just having sex. And my friend Sarah thinks I need a good pounding. But I just can't bring myself to do it. So I find myself thinking, well maybe he could be special to me. But I think that is just me, desprate for a lil lovin and trying to reason with myself by lying to myself. I do it all the time. So then I think if I am able to bring myself to do it then I will become attatched. Which isn't good because this guy has been in and out of my life the last 5yrs. I don't like the thought of that. I want someone who is going to be there for me and not just when he wants a little. But isn't that what I am wanting right now? Just a little lovin? ESH I even confuse myself when I start thinking like this. I'm whopped.
Oh, and another point I wanted to make but forgot. I put liking hockey on my deal breakers list. (if you watch sex and the city you know what i am talking about)... the guy loves hockey. *sigh* my weakness. Guys on skates are way hotter then boys in shoes. I don't know what it is.
On other notes..
The love of my life has found his asian women. And she has a british accent. FUCK! He hasn't really spoken to her all that much yet, she just started working with him. But alas, if I ever has even the slimmest of hope in my future it is surely gone now. I am attemping to "talk" to this one guy. He's a nice guy and man can he kiss. And oh those eyes. But I'm afraid because A.) I dont want to get hurt. B.) I dont want to hurt anyone. and C.) I know he has cheated on other girls.
Let me confess a little something here. I have not had sex in 3 and a half years. SInce October 2004. That is a long damn time. I just can't have sex with anyone. I have to be serious about it. I dont know. I'm just like that. I swear I am not prude. I freaking love sex.. but still think that it should be special. So that brings me to this guy I am talking to. I know he wouldn't have a problem just having sex. And my friend Sarah thinks I need a good pounding. But I just can't bring myself to do it. So I find myself thinking, well maybe he could be special to me. But I think that is just me, desprate for a lil lovin and trying to reason with myself by lying to myself. I do it all the time. So then I think if I am able to bring myself to do it then I will become attatched. Which isn't good because this guy has been in and out of my life the last 5yrs. I don't like the thought of that. I want someone who is going to be there for me and not just when he wants a little. But isn't that what I am wanting right now? Just a little lovin? ESH I even confuse myself when I start thinking like this. I'm whopped.
Oh, and another point I wanted to make but forgot. I put liking hockey on my deal breakers list. (if you watch sex and the city you know what i am talking about)... the guy loves hockey. *sigh* my weakness. Guys on skates are way hotter then boys in shoes. I don't know what it is.
I'm out.