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Wednesday May 10, 2006

May 10, 2006
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LISTEN.

It's darkness.
And I'm here lonely and alone.

What will we do when our dreams are all deceived or acheived? Life is all about the journey that takes you there- What happens if your destination is reached or breached.

breached adj : forcibly broken through or opened up.

I want to sing to an audience; wrap my words around my guitarists and create that sensual bond to inspire and enforce my messages. I want the bass and the crowd surging through my veins, making my blood sear and throb, I don't even care if I'm famous. I want to be understood, and help people understand themselves. I want to have time & money to watercolour and read and play guitar and with my son if I want to.

I want to pose for SG as a paid assassin to kill the predetermined and preimplanted notions from society that beauty should adhere to standards and rules.

I have so many aspirations and I know I will reach enough to be happy; I know I will have enough to never stop trying for something. I want to spend the rest of my life trying.

None of them include being loved or having a lover, I'm just not really concerned with that.

But still when I'm all alone in the dark, I want someone to keep the demons of my mind at bay. Someone who can eventually make me feel safe enough to not be stricken with terror at my passing reflection when I walk past an unshuttered window in the dark. Night phobia. It'd be nice to have someone to guard me in so many ways.
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
onewithall:
what if i came with the weekend biggrin
May 11, 2006
stompbox:
I liked this entry. It makes me feel hopeful (though a bit of despair as well), even if that wasn't your intent. A feeling of safety can do more harm than good, and loneliness can be very empowering. Still, I hope you find what you're looking for.
May 11, 2006

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