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Nothing super spectacular happened on the first day of this new year. Nothing worth mentioning happened on the second day either. But maybe on the third day it will happen. And if not then maybe on the forth day. But, if it doesn't happen on the fifth day I might start to get impatient. I need to see a sign that this year will suck a bit less than last year. And all I have gotten in the last two days is a guarantee that no one cares. I care about me. Oh, maybe thats a lie. My heart hurts. I think I can hear it. It has a distinct sound. So familiar.....

I think that I must make a list. A list of personel promises I'll make to myself. Like 10 things I absolutely will never do again soon. Well, maybe not real soon. Well, maybe not next week. Or the week after. And 10 things I wont let others do to me. And maybe 5 things I will do that I dont normally do. I need to tell people to fuck off more often. Definately.

I need to have my heart removed, carefully encased in plexi glass and put back in.

Trust n., The condition and resulting obligation of having confidence placed in one........

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that!