abadseed

What a great way to start off pride weekend here in Columbus! I just found out that my friends back in MA got married last week! (They were super secret not telling anyone for some reason. I guess they didn't want to make it a big deal.) Hooray for progressive people/states!
I'll be going out with my cousin tomorrow night as a supporter of the...
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dress me as you will, make me what i'm not
smoke with me a while, depleat my meaning
move on the breeze with me, let the candles guide you
listen to your breath, see what i see
slide up closer next to me, now, hear what i hear

this morning, the sparrows woke me
i sharpened my knives for the trip to the abattoire
hoping...
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fleet footed anorexic divas
grace the covers of mr. miracle's magazines
digesting last week's chicken
waiting from something to entertain them
fattening themselves up for the slaughter
bracing for the final call up

I tried out for a play yesterday! It felt soooooo damn good to just audition. I haven't been in anything in 7 years. I will know Thursday whether I got the part. It isn't paid, of course, just community theater. BUT, if I get the part, I can get others which will lead to others, which will lead to others....and maybe I will just say...
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first day of being single in a long, long time. not sure if i remember how to do this, which is both good and bad. i'll make it work, as tim gunn tells me to do!

this day is sucking pretty hard. the gf (who is 700 miles east of me) won't respond to any calls or texts, its storming here, and i had some really fucked up dreams last night. i know it will get better. i just wish it would hurry up.

i'm getting closer and closer to ending this long distance relationship. i can't handle it anymore, and its only been since the end of april. no intimacy over the phone or skype. no intimacy the week before i left. i'm just kind of feeling like a friend that she is keeping around to make her feel better because all of her other friends suck. we...
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i have the week off from work, and so far it is kinda lame. since i just moved back into columbus, most of my friends are gone. they have all moved to other parts of the country, as i just did, but, unlike me, have not found their way back.
i can't help myself but to feel kind of lonely and depressed, since i only...
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I'm sitting outside, enjoying this evening's gloaming. The street lights are surrounded by spectres of used to be incandescent glory. Animal Collective is plugged into my head, giving rise to thoughts of multi-faceted other dimensional corporations. I can hear my blood flying through my head, my tounge as it falls into place in my mouth. Something smells slightly of petrol. I say petrol because it...
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just got home from the sg party at mozaik! what a fun night. soooo glad i went. met sunshine, alissa, durb, marceau, frolic, and many other sgs, hopefuls and members. yay!