abadseed

Last night was a huge mixed bag. I met some really great people, had some drinky poos, but couldn't muster up the courage to talk to any of the SGs. There is just something really awkward about introducing yourself to someone when the only way you know them is through their nude pictures. It is for me, anyway. I just feel weird and lecherous. But, in retrospect, it is far more lecherous to NOT introduce yourself. I did meet Ru5ty, Zale, Would, Rainbow, usedupfool, and a few other people. All was not lost, but not as much was gained as could have been.

I had a dream last night where I was given the opportunity to "be with" this same SG, and I kept making excuses about why it wouldn't be a good idea. We were in an alley somewhere, and when things started, it was ok, but then all of these people showed up around us, so I backed off. Then, we went to my parent's house (wtf, brain?) and the opportunity arose again, and still I did nothing. I ended up playing basketball with some people (I hate basketball) instead, then going to sleep. When I woke up, she was outside talking with my mom and sister and playing with our dogs. So, it seemed like everything might be ok, I could actually have a relationship rather than a fling (and, as I write this, I realize that was the point of the dream...I want a relationship instead of just a one night stand/brief fling). So, I left them to talk and play with the dogs. Then, I was in the room where she had slept, she said she was leaving. I asked if she was going alone, she said yes. I gave her a hug and woke up.



And it is a good day for this song: