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It was like ... six years ago when I completely changed my life.

I stopped caring about what others thought about me ... I quit feeling the need to kill myself ... and I stopped looking forward to things.

Every time I looked forward to something and it didn't happen ... which was like ... every time, I felt sooooooooooooo shitty ... down in the dumps, worthless, used.

So I stopped getting excited about things. I figure, if the plan happens, bonus. If not ... ah well ... not like I thought it was gonna happen anyways.

I know - not the best way to look at things ... but it works for me and keeps me sane.

So - knowing this, I wasn't the least bit upset last night that I didn't get to see the Rasputina concert ... even after finding out that Dayna Manning was opening. I've had a crush on Dayna Manning since I was 16!!

But no ... see ... not having valid photo ID can really limit the places you get into ... even when you're my height and look to be older than the person checking ID's.

So ... yeah ... no concert for me last night.

Ah well ... shit happens.

Yes ... you're right ... on the inside, I am bummed ... but as I said above ... whatever ... shit happens.