Even when you think you are in a hole that is never ending and constantly getting bigger and darker and things are looking less appealing than they once did ... funny things happen.
For instance ... you meet someone that changes your life. Even those chance meetings that happen out of nowhere ... a friend invites you somewhere and despite not feeling like going out ... you do ... and when you get there, you see a beautiful girl that has this odd little twinkle in her eye that makes you smile for some reason ... even though you haven't really smiled in weeks 'cause life has been throwing you around like a rag doll.
And maybe that person sees something in you ... who knows what it is ... but it interests them enough to want to know you better. And despite all the usual feelings of fear - the fear of rejection, of being laughed at, of being alone, of wasting your time ... that person actually makes the effort to talk to the mutual friend and get your email address ... to contact you ... to chat with you ... to understand you and connect with you.
And all that time, you thought you were in a hole where nothing could go right.
Yes folks ... that was me in that hole a year ago. I had no job, no lover, no money flow, no ... well hell ... no nothing of interest.
But then I decided to accept my friends offer to go out and visit her while she house sat for another friend.
That was the night I met my girlfriend. And you wanna know what? It's been a great year.
Yes ... today is my one year anniversary with my girlfriend.
In some ways it really doesn't feel that long, in others, it feels like it's been ten years.
The way she makes me smile and get butterflies when I see her ... still to this day ... makes me forget about any little petty issue I have with her. And really ... those issues are few and far between and are mostly issues that I have to deal with ... not her.
While it is true that we only see each other on weekends mostly, I can't wait to hear her voice when I call her at work nightly. Or even see the words she types when we chat online.
I love the way she smiles ... the way she holds me when we cuddle ... the way she laughs ... her drive to learn new things ... her persistance ... ah hell ... what isn't there to love about her.
I am really happy to be with her. I'm glad she took the chance and wanted to get to know me ... especially in the mindset she was in at the time. I'm glad things worked out the way they did. 'Cause me being the tard I am ... I was WAY too shy and way too down on myself to thnk someone like her would ever want to date someone like me.
So here I am ... one year later. There's a big smile on my face and my heart is kinda fluttering in my chest thinking about her.
God ... can anyone say sappy?
So ... I know I'll get the questions for a picture, so here goes:
Yup ... I love her.
For instance ... you meet someone that changes your life. Even those chance meetings that happen out of nowhere ... a friend invites you somewhere and despite not feeling like going out ... you do ... and when you get there, you see a beautiful girl that has this odd little twinkle in her eye that makes you smile for some reason ... even though you haven't really smiled in weeks 'cause life has been throwing you around like a rag doll.
And maybe that person sees something in you ... who knows what it is ... but it interests them enough to want to know you better. And despite all the usual feelings of fear - the fear of rejection, of being laughed at, of being alone, of wasting your time ... that person actually makes the effort to talk to the mutual friend and get your email address ... to contact you ... to chat with you ... to understand you and connect with you.
And all that time, you thought you were in a hole where nothing could go right.
Yes folks ... that was me in that hole a year ago. I had no job, no lover, no money flow, no ... well hell ... no nothing of interest.
But then I decided to accept my friends offer to go out and visit her while she house sat for another friend.
That was the night I met my girlfriend. And you wanna know what? It's been a great year.
Yes ... today is my one year anniversary with my girlfriend.
In some ways it really doesn't feel that long, in others, it feels like it's been ten years.
The way she makes me smile and get butterflies when I see her ... still to this day ... makes me forget about any little petty issue I have with her. And really ... those issues are few and far between and are mostly issues that I have to deal with ... not her.
While it is true that we only see each other on weekends mostly, I can't wait to hear her voice when I call her at work nightly. Or even see the words she types when we chat online.
I love the way she smiles ... the way she holds me when we cuddle ... the way she laughs ... her drive to learn new things ... her persistance ... ah hell ... what isn't there to love about her.
I am really happy to be with her. I'm glad she took the chance and wanted to get to know me ... especially in the mindset she was in at the time. I'm glad things worked out the way they did. 'Cause me being the tard I am ... I was WAY too shy and way too down on myself to thnk someone like her would ever want to date someone like me.
So here I am ... one year later. There's a big smile on my face and my heart is kinda fluttering in my chest thinking about her.
God ... can anyone say sappy?
So ... I know I'll get the questions for a picture, so here goes:
Yup ... I love her.
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beledi:
happy anniversary! how sweet. 
steveneurotic:
Thanks dude. I should let you know though, that the inner workings of the music industry can be very, VERY ugly. There's many times where the stress, politics, and bullshit of it all were so overwhelming that I wished I'd never bothered.