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*sigh* Another day, another day of pain. Albeit, slightly better ... but still pain.

I found out yesterday that my dad got a prescription for pain killers when he was in the hospital that he never filled. I urged him to go fill it so I couldtake the suckers and after some convincing that I wasn't gonna die if he gave me the pills, he went and got them filled.

On the prescription, I woulda swore it said percocet. But when he got the pills, they were demerol. I'm no pharmacist ... so maybe they are the same thing ... but either way, I was happy.

So now there is a small amount of pain, but at least it doesn't feel like there is someone stabbing at the root of my tooth with something sharp.

I also made a bunch of phone calls yesterday and found out that I might be able to get the work done in a hospital and have OHIP cover it - which would be grand, 'cause otherwise I'll have to borrow the money off someone and I absolutely hate borrowing money.

So all I gotta do is get a referral ... which means I have to wait until Monday to see a dentist and then wait for a space to open up to have the work done. So it looks like a weekend full of pain for me.

And to top it all off, the one thing other than the demerol that seems to be helping, marijuana, is lacking in my department. Oh well.

So ... mind if I get into a deep philosophical discussion here? No? Good. You had no choice anyways.

I'm getting sick of the stereotype males have to live with.

I've wanted to use this space to pay homage to a few of my favourite SG models and members, but figured my comments might be misconstrued as lust or something else.

I'm tired of not being able to compliment a female on being pretty or having nice boobies or anything else for that matter without fear that my comments might be misconstrued or passed off as a lame pick up attempt.

I understand that there is a large portion of the male population that are assholes and only think about females for one thing - sex. But just because one person thinks it doesn't mean the whole gender does.

That would be like you finding a maggot in an apple and thinking that EVERY apple in the world has creepy shit inside it.

I have serious problems with stereotypes. An African dude can call another African dude a ni---r, but if a white guy does, it's ludicrious. A female can call another female beautiful and touch her face or arm or whatever and no odd thought will cross a mind. But if it were a male, obviously he wants to do dirty things with her.

*sigh* Why do I even bother? I mean ... I can see both sides of the story - when you hear something so much and a certain expectation comes from it seemingly every time, it gets to be expected.

But coming from someone who is extremely happy in the relationship they are in and has no interest in jeopardizing that relationship in any way ... all I ask for is a little respect. I'm tired of wanting to compliment someone and being looked at like a perv.

If I see nice boobies, I'm gonna say that they are nice boobies. If I see someone that is absolutely stunning, I'm gonna say so.

/rant