The pain of stupid people is getting on my nerves. If you don't know what you are doing, don't just go at it, ASK! Computers can be real big problems if you have no idea how to use the settings, so don't just do, ASK!
For some reason today I feel like freaking out (the stupidity has aided it, but isn't the original cause). My calm exterior is fading at the moment and I'm not sure why. Its dark outside and raining, but I love that. I got plenty of sleep last night. I'm just on edge. I fear someone undeserving is going to incur my wrath. BLAH!
I got into a discussion with a girl on the same floor in my office today about why I do music. Perhaps that is what is bothering me. She found it unfathomable that my entire reason for doing music is selfish and personal. The statement "Even when I perform in front of people, I'm still doing it just for myself", just didn't make sense to her. When a recording my sister and I made ended up in a film, we didn't want anything for it, we didn't even ask for recognition. Why is it absurd to do music because you enjoy it. When I sing, I'm doing it to hear myself. I love my voice. Anyone else be damned. Receiving applause from an audience is crap when you know you didn't do as well as you could. Audiences are stupid and can be entertained by vocal sludge, hence American Idol.
Man, I can feel something pissed off inside of me. It's telling me to pick an intellectual fight for reasons of belittlement. That ain't no good. I think I'm going to take a break from work and go down to the pub and have a beer.
For some reason today I feel like freaking out (the stupidity has aided it, but isn't the original cause). My calm exterior is fading at the moment and I'm not sure why. Its dark outside and raining, but I love that. I got plenty of sleep last night. I'm just on edge. I fear someone undeserving is going to incur my wrath. BLAH!
I got into a discussion with a girl on the same floor in my office today about why I do music. Perhaps that is what is bothering me. She found it unfathomable that my entire reason for doing music is selfish and personal. The statement "Even when I perform in front of people, I'm still doing it just for myself", just didn't make sense to her. When a recording my sister and I made ended up in a film, we didn't want anything for it, we didn't even ask for recognition. Why is it absurd to do music because you enjoy it. When I sing, I'm doing it to hear myself. I love my voice. Anyone else be damned. Receiving applause from an audience is crap when you know you didn't do as well as you could. Audiences are stupid and can be entertained by vocal sludge, hence American Idol.
Man, I can feel something pissed off inside of me. It's telling me to pick an intellectual fight for reasons of belittlement. That ain't no good. I think I'm going to take a break from work and go down to the pub and have a beer.
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riley:
i sing for me and me alone
i sing for me and me alone
merrow:
At a certain level of performance, music is no longer a deeply personal matter. Occasionally music may seem selfish and egocentric to the musician, but the beauty of music is that so long as anyone else can hear it, the music is no longer about one persons enjoyment. If you had asked me last year why I kill (figuratively) myself for music, I would have said because I love to sing, solely for the pleasure of singing, blah de blah de fucking blah. However, why would you perform for other people if it was just for your own enjoyment? If music is solely for you, what are you communicating when you sing? Are you just telling yourself and no one else to believe what you sing? Personally the connection that I have with the audience when I am performing is the reason I still love to sing, and without that, even if singing makes me immensely happy just in practice, its all just a bunch of noise.