aaronidiot

Yeah, so once again, I am attempting to ween myself from habitually smoking marijuana. And yet again, I hit a wall the very first day. It would be alright to stop smoking if I could shut my brain off, but sadly, I need to medicate myself in some form or another in order to sleep. Grrrr. So last night, I went to bed at 11, which would have been great, I would have been able to get up at 6 and go to the gym before work, but alas, I was awake till 3 in the morning with my own thoughts to keep me company. What is it with our generation and ADD? I think it has to do with the fact that things are so quick and readily available nowadays, that we need new things on a constant basis, teaching our minds to work at a higher level. Of course, if this is true, then why are there so many fucking idiots in this world? Sorry, just the fatigue speaking there.

I am once again doing what I wish I wouldn't do, and that would be thinking about a girl who has burned me in the past. The thing about it is, I know she will do it again, and that is partially why I am drawn to her, that and the fact that she has to be one of the hottest girls I've ever met. I'm going to see her in a show this weekend, where I might try to persuade her to join me for drinks. We'll see how that goes, but nonetheless I am looking forward to trying. I enjoy when I have to work for a girl, the problem is, there are few that I'll work for. This is due to the fact that I am a sucker for punishment, the more they give me, the more I want them. If there isn't a chase, there isn't a point. What's funny though, is once I get it, I toss it out. What the fuck is wrong with me.

Alright, rambling for the day shall cease at that, and I will wish you all a merry week.

-Aaron