So last night I started to explode with fury. I have, or rather had, a friend who dicked me around and was trying to screw over my friend. This friend who was dicking me around has no possible qualm with me, except that he didn't want to talk to me because I was trying to keep my other friend from being screwed over by him. I can say, with no hesitation, that I have treated this friend with the utmost respect and generosity for the length of time I've known him. I've been overly generous, and perhaps even foolishly generous in retrospect, with this friend. But first, he made the choice not to call me back. Then not to respond to a text message. I won't go into it any further, but suffice to say, I'm more pissed than I have been in a very long time. Last night I was up until around 3am just boiling with fury. It has continued on through today. Though this morning I finally got him to return my phone call, but only after I was required to issue a threat. Funny, one minute after the threat, I got a phone call.
I don't like being vindictive, I don't like being an asshole, but I'm surprisingly adept at both. After this weekend, the issue with my other friend who was being screwed over will be resolved. I'm not sure if I want to let it go and just cut my ties with him, or if I should be vindictive. I don't think I will, but I don't think I'll be able to control my tongue, which I'm afraid may result in physical pain for me. At this point though, I think physical pain is more desireable than the unquenched fire inside me right now. I may not feel that way after the fact, but I don't think I can go on without letting my feelings and thoughts be known. I just hope this doesn't trickle down and hurt relations with our mutual friends.
I'm just so angry right now. I think I need to get a lot of beer, a lot of pot and some serious quiet time. Who knows, maybe I can calm down by the time I see him this weekend, and here's to hoping.
Fucking fuck fuck fuck. I hate when people can't just be mature and adult about issues. You should NEVER have to threaten a friend. NEVER!!!!! God damn.
I hate this shit.
-aaron
I don't like being vindictive, I don't like being an asshole, but I'm surprisingly adept at both. After this weekend, the issue with my other friend who was being screwed over will be resolved. I'm not sure if I want to let it go and just cut my ties with him, or if I should be vindictive. I don't think I will, but I don't think I'll be able to control my tongue, which I'm afraid may result in physical pain for me. At this point though, I think physical pain is more desireable than the unquenched fire inside me right now. I may not feel that way after the fact, but I don't think I can go on without letting my feelings and thoughts be known. I just hope this doesn't trickle down and hurt relations with our mutual friends.
I'm just so angry right now. I think I need to get a lot of beer, a lot of pot and some serious quiet time. Who knows, maybe I can calm down by the time I see him this weekend, and here's to hoping.
Fucking fuck fuck fuck. I hate when people can't just be mature and adult about issues. You should NEVER have to threaten a friend. NEVER!!!!! God damn.
I hate this shit.
-aaron