Well this weekend was great at first and then somewhat of a bust. And I feel like I totally blew it with this really great girl and that has brought me down. Couldn't sleep last night at all...and now I am back at work working two full time jobs for the rest of this week until I fully move over to my new job. And now I am concerned about being able to see people during the week and basically leaving my only open night Saturday. I can't wait for this new job but at the same time, I feel like I am missing something as well. I keep thinking about getting back together with an ex but I have to remind myself why I left in the first place. And I am really wanting to meet somebody new but it just hasn't come about yet. I try to remind myself that I just need to get settled in with my new job, get my schedule in order, set up my sessions with my trainer at the gym and get my shit together. I told myself that if I got this job I would get myself together health wise. Anyways I feel like this is all just BS anyways in the grand scheme of things. I am rather pissy right now and don't even know what the hell I am talking about at the moment. Later