aaronc

For some reason my stomach is all tied up in knots, I'm drinking tons of water like crazy, I feel like a panic attack is coming any minute but I know it won't and I am just all kinds of jittery...more than usual. What the hell happened? I have no reason to be nervous or upset, or even anxious for that matter other than wanting to get out of work. I only had two cups of coffee, even though I know I shouldn't have any. Drinking possibly? Too much booze, maybe? I am getting all worked up for no good reason and it just drives me crazy, because I can't calm down. Not like this sort of thing happens ever, actually pretty rarely, but still when it comes on....I don't like it. Anyways...I need to slow down I think period. I thought about taking a hiatus from well...pretty much everything that I do and just work, stay home and read and write. I miss reading. I have not been able to relax and enjoy a good read in a long time because I just don't have the time anymore. I really need to start finding the time for myself. That was the whole reason I got out of a relationship some time ago to begin with, because I wanted to just be by myself for awhile. I hardly ever put these sorts of things into writing especially on a public forum...but sometimes I wonder if all of it just builds up inside and causes the undue stress. I am not a stressed out person but I do let things build for no good reason. Nothing major, just all the little things that over time pile up and before you know it, you are just a big tightly wound up ball of stress. And I don't like it.

What I would really like is a massage. A good solid relaxing massage and a steam room to just let it all roll off. I miss having my gym membership mainly for the steam room. Even if I didn't feel like working out I could just go to the steam room and relax and walk out feeling so refreshed. Anyways, I have a busy weekend ahead with another feature script table read on Saturday plus dinner and a play that evening. Tonight is a big party and show (buddy of mine from Nashville will be performing) at Joe's on Weed St. and because my parents like to party, they will be there with a bunch of our family friends. Alright already...enough is enough.

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Everyone have a wonderful weekend!