Ok so here I am again, going on 3am at work, probably sleeping on the couch here, waiting...that's all. I really want to go out to Exit and have a few but I am more tired than anything. Just...I don't know anymore...I long to go home to someone, curl up next to someone and relax but alas...that is not my place at the moment. My place is create and learn, grow...appreciate all that I am and be alone. Work...work is my life, my passion and I do love it but what is all of the effort put into a passion or desire without someone around to share it with intimately. I mean I have my amazing friends that also share in my passions and my dreams etc...but it doesn't really have the same effect that it does when you are able to share that intimately in a supportive manner with another. Patience...patience and practice. Keep on keepin on..and so on and so forth. This really is just ramblings, I am quite content with my place in this world at the moment. I am lucky and much better off then some that share the same dreams I do...I am very very lucky but it is not luck. I work hard and I am damn good at what I do in more ways than my employers know...soon enough...soon, it will all come together....