aanya

So I decided that my dad is the greatest. He is the only person in my life that supports whatever decision it is that I make. He has complete faith in me that I can do whatever I put my mind to and it is the greatest feeling.
None of my friends are like that, they will always try to talk me out of something, or say "Yeah right" and basically show no support to me. My mother is the same way. Always on the negative, the "I'll believe that when I see it" line.
WHy is it so hard to put your faith in someone? Why is it so hard to think someone can do something...and even if you dont think they can why cant you support their decision anyway?
I think part of the reason I havent done certain things in my life is because I always have people telling me that I cant do them. And that makes even the simplest things hard to do. If everyone had supported me through certain areas of my life, I would probably be a hell of a lot more successful than I am now. But I think I have passed needing that now. I am so used to no one believing in me that now I do things just to prove them wrong and prove that I can do it. I guess it is sort of my big Fuck you to anyone who says i cant.
So maybe instead of questioning whether or not someone can do something, give them your full support for it. Because even if they dont do it, at least you were there chearing them on and if it doesnt happen it is for reasons other than them feeling incompetent and unsupported.

ps--> this all stemmed from my mothers constant negativity today and the realization that no one in my life except my dad has supported me.