i have so much racing through my mind.
and not a whole lot to say.
i think i need to slow down and just take a breather.
i've had so much stress in my life right now.
and my body finally gave in.
i've spent the last two days paralyzed in my bed
with people sending me warm wishes and concerns over the internet
ah, the internet. such a charmed thing.
cutting off all lack of personal touch and human emotion.
sometimes i wish i could switch brains with someone.
keep all my wit. keep all my sass. keep everything that's essentially me. and get rid of this awful thing i like to call epilepsy.
it's a horrible affliction, i tell you.
something i've dealt with since i was 12.
and i just wish sometimes it would go away.
far far away. and never come back.
something that was all dreamed and imagined.
something that didn't control my life half as much as it did.
but alas, that will never happen.
and so i keep on livin. day by day. pill by pill. and hoping someday that i can live my life as normally as possible.
f'ing epilepsy.
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in other news,
our landlords got our 2nd letter.
which i wrote.
and i must admit, it was kinda harsh.
i have quite the way with words.
ash and i think they came upstairs to talk to us today... but we didn't open the door.
then we snuck out and went for coffee.
we're devious.
and we're moving soon.
so excited.
then i can smoke pot ... IN PEACE!
- - -
anyways,
i'm freezing.
and i wish i had someone to snuggle under the covers with.
alas, i don't.
so i'll curl up beside my body pillow and just imagine.
god - i sound like such an emo pro star.
and not a whole lot to say.
i think i need to slow down and just take a breather.
i've had so much stress in my life right now.
and my body finally gave in.
i've spent the last two days paralyzed in my bed
with people sending me warm wishes and concerns over the internet
ah, the internet. such a charmed thing.
cutting off all lack of personal touch and human emotion.
sometimes i wish i could switch brains with someone.
keep all my wit. keep all my sass. keep everything that's essentially me. and get rid of this awful thing i like to call epilepsy.
it's a horrible affliction, i tell you.
something i've dealt with since i was 12.
and i just wish sometimes it would go away.
far far away. and never come back.
something that was all dreamed and imagined.
something that didn't control my life half as much as it did.
but alas, that will never happen.
and so i keep on livin. day by day. pill by pill. and hoping someday that i can live my life as normally as possible.
f'ing epilepsy.
- - -
in other news,
our landlords got our 2nd letter.
which i wrote.
and i must admit, it was kinda harsh.
i have quite the way with words.
ash and i think they came upstairs to talk to us today... but we didn't open the door.
then we snuck out and went for coffee.
we're devious.
and we're moving soon.
so excited.
then i can smoke pot ... IN PEACE!
- - -
anyways,
i'm freezing.
and i wish i had someone to snuggle under the covers with.
alas, i don't.
so i'll curl up beside my body pillow and just imagine.
god - i sound like such an emo pro star.
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i might not be on here everyday now, the internet got shut off at the apartment temporarily. i have to go over to my brothers to get on here, but i will try to do so a few times a week til i get my net up and running again.