you know what's the worst.
having your friends cancel on you - and the don't even call.
you find out on the internet that they aren't coming. how nice.
being alone on one of these stupid hallmark produced holidays that you KNOW you shouldn't care about ... but for some strange reason you do. wishing you had someone or something to be close to.
being poor because you have to move again. altho you know it's for the better... you're sick and tired of just dealing with shitty landlords and paying out of your ass over and over and over again. fucking toronto. can't you have any good houses anywhere.
being somewhat scared because the new house you're moving into sounds too good to be true. and after being fucked over so many times by landlords ... you just dont know what to expect anymore.
wanting pancakes so badly.
wanting a joint so badly.
wanting to be drunk or high so badly.
wishing for so much.
and not having enough.
why am i so blah today.
this sucks.
- - -
i think im going to go out to the scandalles tonight.
however i have noone to go to.
HugsyGirl said she might call in sick for work to come with me. but i feel badly.
i dont want her to call into work sick just for me.
and i know how much money she could make at work tonight.
all my other friends want me to come out to 2 Live Crew tonight @ Palasis Royale.
which i'm also considering since i got put on the reduced guestlist.
but i dunno. i just dont know if i wanna deal with iced out people all fucked outta their trees.
god. i wish kellan didnt cancel this weekend.
thats all i really wanted.
was to see my best friend.
and hold him. and hug him. and love him.
fuck. i miss him so much.
someone needs to make my plans for me tonight.
i swear i'll dress up pretty and be fun.
just right now i'm feeling so blah.
having your friends cancel on you - and the don't even call.
you find out on the internet that they aren't coming. how nice.
being alone on one of these stupid hallmark produced holidays that you KNOW you shouldn't care about ... but for some strange reason you do. wishing you had someone or something to be close to.
being poor because you have to move again. altho you know it's for the better... you're sick and tired of just dealing with shitty landlords and paying out of your ass over and over and over again. fucking toronto. can't you have any good houses anywhere.
being somewhat scared because the new house you're moving into sounds too good to be true. and after being fucked over so many times by landlords ... you just dont know what to expect anymore.
wanting pancakes so badly.
wanting a joint so badly.
wanting to be drunk or high so badly.
wishing for so much.
and not having enough.
why am i so blah today.
this sucks.
- - -
i think im going to go out to the scandalles tonight.
however i have noone to go to.
HugsyGirl said she might call in sick for work to come with me. but i feel badly.
i dont want her to call into work sick just for me.
and i know how much money she could make at work tonight.
all my other friends want me to come out to 2 Live Crew tonight @ Palasis Royale.
which i'm also considering since i got put on the reduced guestlist.
but i dunno. i just dont know if i wanna deal with iced out people all fucked outta their trees.
god. i wish kellan didnt cancel this weekend.
thats all i really wanted.
was to see my best friend.
and hold him. and hug him. and love him.
fuck. i miss him so much.
someone needs to make my plans for me tonight.
i swear i'll dress up pretty and be fun.
just right now i'm feeling so blah.
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All you need to do is get ripped with strangers (and take your drink with you) and have a ball !!!!!!!
I'm not much of a fan of Feb. 14th either...but your situation is pretty sucky - especially considering how impersonal the cancellation was. You deserve better than that, my dear.
Moving back and forth as you have must be quite taxing, and I don't blame you for being upset about it. Keep your chin up! I know that all will work out for you.
I don't have any plans for tonight, but I hope to see you on Feb. 25th for the next meet and greet. My friends FreakPirate and PresidentNumber2 are going to be in town, and we will be having a get-together. All the info is in the Canada East group, and I hope that you can make it. I would really like to see you again.
Have a good night and a great Sunday!