sorry its been so long since i have written... its been an unusual week or so since my birthday festivities. with all good things has to come a few bad, and i have taken some personal time to reflect since i have last written. to sum up what i am currenly dealing with, i finally came out to my parents that i was molested as a child by the babysitter's daughter. it was a tough conversation that i chose to have when they visited me in boston in hopes that it would help me cope, and also help them understand my predispositioned bisexual tendancies. altho the conversation turned from personal confession to a confession from then... they told me that i had been previously molested even before then. this has been difficult for me to wrap my head around, but it also makes perfect sense about how i feel sometimes as far as my aggressions towards women sexualy. both times i was molested by babysitters they were women, and it marks my life from years 2-8... it sorta makes me feel lost and confused, but i figure others out they may have similar experiences and can journey with me through coping.
i also in the past few months have been in and out of hospitals getting poked and proded like a blue ribbon science experiment. still no definate answers as to why as get sick so often but we are narrowing down the possibilities. i had a cat scan today, and too many blood tests to recall lately... blah. the lab tech told me i needed to take out my earrings i just laughed at him and asked "all 14?" he decided to let me by. :-)
on a happier note i dyed my hair. it reminds me of marbled cake, but it looks really cool, i will take a pic soon.
still no word from SG about my appication... i hope i get accepted. the idea of being a suicide girl makes me feel empowered, important, and like i could surpass any adversity in my life as far as ill health and childhood torment.
i also in the past few months have been in and out of hospitals getting poked and proded like a blue ribbon science experiment. still no definate answers as to why as get sick so often but we are narrowing down the possibilities. i had a cat scan today, and too many blood tests to recall lately... blah. the lab tech told me i needed to take out my earrings i just laughed at him and asked "all 14?" he decided to let me by. :-)
on a happier note i dyed my hair. it reminds me of marbled cake, but it looks really cool, i will take a pic soon.
still no word from SG about my appication... i hope i get accepted. the idea of being a suicide girl makes me feel empowered, important, and like i could surpass any adversity in my life as far as ill health and childhood torment.
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impysh78:
Man... yea, that is a rough week. I know some who have been through similar experiences. It must be tough. I hold high respect for those who have been through these things and are surviving it and not only that but talking about it. I hope you work through it all. I would comment on your hair but it would sound totally shallow after all that.
v0rge:
My god that has to be one of the worst things i have ever heard. I am so sorry. I hope you get better with the sickness. Also good luck on getting accepted. You take care of yourself.