Well I guess its update time...
So the date was fun. She is a beautiful girl. Stunning actually. Buuuuut the magic wasnt there for me. There were no explosions, I wasnt thinking about what she dreamed about, I wasnt hanging onto her every word, i wasnt smitten by her glances...
Im just not ready.
Im still damaged goods. Im still in love with being in love with the fliplet. And thats okay... Im doing well and emerging from the gloom, but that still doesnt mean that I will have much to give in terrms of any sort of meaningful relationships right now... i dont see many more dates on my near horizon...
today was ok. i had a good meeting in the morning and a a nice relaxing afternoon. I would say I got through about 80% of today in high spirits with low drama... then came the fliplet. I went over to her place (for 5 minutes) to pick up something i need for tonight, as she was preparing to go out... everything was fine while I was there, our interaction strained but still normal. But I got home five minutes ago andthe bluest hit me like bricks in a bag...
but im not gonna let it get me down. there are tons of events to distract me tonight...first up is the roost to see everyone who is visiting, then off to the derby for an art show/party, then its off to go dance... i need to work this mofo out tonight.
*sigh*
right. so enough of that.
thanks for all the valentine wishes
love you all too 
So the date was fun. She is a beautiful girl. Stunning actually. Buuuuut the magic wasnt there for me. There were no explosions, I wasnt thinking about what she dreamed about, I wasnt hanging onto her every word, i wasnt smitten by her glances...
Im just not ready.
Im still damaged goods. Im still in love with being in love with the fliplet. And thats okay... Im doing well and emerging from the gloom, but that still doesnt mean that I will have much to give in terrms of any sort of meaningful relationships right now... i dont see many more dates on my near horizon...
today was ok. i had a good meeting in the morning and a a nice relaxing afternoon. I would say I got through about 80% of today in high spirits with low drama... then came the fliplet. I went over to her place (for 5 minutes) to pick up something i need for tonight, as she was preparing to go out... everything was fine while I was there, our interaction strained but still normal. But I got home five minutes ago andthe bluest hit me like bricks in a bag...
but im not gonna let it get me down. there are tons of events to distract me tonight...first up is the roost to see everyone who is visiting, then off to the derby for an art show/party, then its off to go dance... i need to work this mofo out tonight.
*sigh*
right. so enough of that.
thanks for all the valentine wishes
love you all too VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
No attempted seduction here!
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I fell in love and chased a woman for 10 years. I moved on and married but I still think about her all the time. We run into each other and things are cool.
From someone who's been somewhere similar. Don't try to quelch the feelings and memories. They will be with you forever (and that's a good thing). Trying to not think about it will drive you crazy. It did me. Acknowledge the feelings are there but know that you don't have to act on them. They will soon fade like a bruise. Yes, you've been hurt. If you try to suppress the feelings, then you are pressing on the bruise. It will never fade that way.
I wish you the best.
gramps is ok.. holding on. we shall see what happens.
thanks for asking.
have a great weekend.