a35mmlife

Last night I fell asleep at 9:30. This is a rare occurrence for me. I would say that I am in bed before midnight maybe 20 times a year. I sure did need it though. I'm just impressed that I slept through the night. Honestly.

Today, I am looking over job boards and sending out emails to my friends looking for work. This is the worst timing imaginable. Seriously. Anyone who makes any kind of decision on hiring new employees will be on vacation for the next few week- right over the time I am looking to get hired. *Doh!* I'm such a dumb-ass....this wasnt too well thought out. But sometimes change can't wait...

Am I going to have to find myself some transitional work? Maybe I will learn how to operate a cappuccino machine! Perhaps how to pour a cocktail? Aluminum siding anyone? Urban Outfitters *gag*? This is going to be rough... Life is just so overwhelming right now. So much change. So much transition. Hey- Bring it. I need it. I've been lazy and lethargic. I just want some stability again.

Last night I dreamed of moving back to Israel to raise money for the hospitals that are really hurting right now. Hmmmmm. Am I trying to tell myself something? I think I just want to feel like I am doing something important with my life. I lost that with this job. I used to wake up and feel like I was making a difference... maybe my mother is right- maybe I am a school teacher. I just cant see myself 20 years from now with 20 snot nosed kids coughing and pulling hair...

I think I may look into the advertising community... It's all so open now...

feeling: rested and restless
seeing: my bank account hurting
listening: cant get off this grandaddy yet- thanks earplug!
listen to Faces and Beer and tell me what you think!!! I love this song!!!