'When going through hell,
...keep going."
W. Churchill
i sure as hell ain't parkin' it here
... this road to recovery is riddled with potholes and saturated with 'Booby'-traps. i feel like i'm walking head first into each and every one of them...
This is a bunch of 'firsts' for me...first time ive ever fallen in love..first time ive ever had my heart crushed... first time i dont have a real support unit to help me through... but, to be honest, I master most of my 'firsts' in life. This will be no different...
the REAL kick in the nuts here is the tremendous blow ive taken to my self-confidence. I just feel like its all slipping out of my hands. Everything I built is tumbling like a house of cards. In the end, I know I will be just fine. I think of this as I do of most of life experiences. I know that, like quitting smoking, it is just a decision that comes when a person is ready to take their life into their own control.
I'm pretty good at rolling with punches and try to make them into opportuinties to grow. Generally, I've got the balls, the focus and the drive... this time Its just taking me longer than usual to see my 'out.' its feels almost like trying to stop a knit sweater from unraveling. So I am not going to wait much longer, in fact...
This week, I'm forcing the hand. Its time for change. Soon, before I do some irreperable damage to myself, my family, my friendships, my job. I'm not going to wait for this fucker to get much worse. Im going to take corrective action...
Ive been at my job for almost four years, and the learning curve has crested. I am a filmmaker, not a worker bee. The time has come for me to take a real risk of my own. Right now is as good of a time as any. Dont have that much to lose...my roots have been rattled...So...We start tomorrow. 'Summer Madness' is good and is just about ready to get packaged. I start tomorrow.
*Ladies and Gents please turn your cellphones off- the show is about to begin*
feeling: Like a bar of gold coved in dog shit
soundtrack: I would say 'Eye of The Tiger' would fit well hear, but Yumi Bitzu is playing in the background...
Something You Didn't Know about me: Vegitarian- 14 years
if you don't know, now you
KNOW
forgive the spelling tonight... not even gonna reread this bitch...
...keep going."
W. Churchill
i sure as hell ain't parkin' it here
... this road to recovery is riddled with potholes and saturated with 'Booby'-traps. i feel like i'm walking head first into each and every one of them...
This is a bunch of 'firsts' for me...first time ive ever fallen in love..first time ive ever had my heart crushed... first time i dont have a real support unit to help me through... but, to be honest, I master most of my 'firsts' in life. This will be no different...
the REAL kick in the nuts here is the tremendous blow ive taken to my self-confidence. I just feel like its all slipping out of my hands. Everything I built is tumbling like a house of cards. In the end, I know I will be just fine. I think of this as I do of most of life experiences. I know that, like quitting smoking, it is just a decision that comes when a person is ready to take their life into their own control.
I'm pretty good at rolling with punches and try to make them into opportuinties to grow. Generally, I've got the balls, the focus and the drive... this time Its just taking me longer than usual to see my 'out.' its feels almost like trying to stop a knit sweater from unraveling. So I am not going to wait much longer, in fact...
This week, I'm forcing the hand. Its time for change. Soon, before I do some irreperable damage to myself, my family, my friendships, my job. I'm not going to wait for this fucker to get much worse. Im going to take corrective action...
Ive been at my job for almost four years, and the learning curve has crested. I am a filmmaker, not a worker bee. The time has come for me to take a real risk of my own. Right now is as good of a time as any. Dont have that much to lose...my roots have been rattled...So...We start tomorrow. 'Summer Madness' is good and is just about ready to get packaged. I start tomorrow.
*Ladies and Gents please turn your cellphones off- the show is about to begin*
feeling: Like a bar of gold coved in dog shit
soundtrack: I would say 'Eye of The Tiger' would fit well hear, but Yumi Bitzu is playing in the background...
Something You Didn't Know about me: Vegitarian- 14 years
if you don't know, now you
KNOW
forgive the spelling tonight... not even gonna reread this bitch...
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