a35mmlife

Last night, I was awake yet asleep and dreaming for hours. It was wonderful. I was in that zone of exhaustion you hit at 5 am where despite your best efforts to hold on, your consciousness just slips out of your control. Once you give in to it...fade in and fade out seamlessly. The cold cloud cover outside set against the warmth and beautiful in the bed was delicious. I fought the separation but alas... responsibility knows no pity.

Speaking of responsibilities... my work reprimand went...well. They snuck in some chastising in between the compliments. It was funny. They want so badly to be mad at me for 'setting a bad example for new employees' and for not 'setting a tone of professionalism in the office,' but really can't be too mad. You see, I am good at what I do and I have beaten every fiscal goal put in front of me. I surpass their expectations time and time again with such little effort, they have their panties in a bundle. But the fucked up shit is... they are right. I am a full on slacker these days. I stay up late watching bad TV (thought cable would fix that...uh...no) and make poor choices right and left. I do just as much work for myself as I do for this company nowadays. But, this will all shift soon... I know... I feel it coming... Change is in the air...

I'm doing something illegal this week. I'll fill you in as it comes together... Here is a clue.

music: for stars, yo la tengo
something you didnt know: I discovered part of a human skull at an archiology dig