This morning I was awaken by the sound of a massive chopper flying over my bed.
...Last night I packedf up all my records and cds. I put my techniques in their cases and unplugged my tv. I put all the Blenko carefully into boxes and took my portrait of JFK off the wall. This computer I am writing on is sitting on an empty desk in and empty room that was once so full....so full of light and love and warmth. This room that so such good times is now a void. It bounces all the spite right back at me. It's my fault. I am self destructive. I've poisoned everything. I am pushing away the best thing to ever happen to me and I dont know why or how to stop it. I guess I am just weak. I guess I am just not ready to take control of my life. Whatever the reason, I feel hollow and unable to sustain any kind of relationships at all right now- Lover, Friend or Foe.
Where did that chopper go? Take me with you. Please.
...Last night I packedf up all my records and cds. I put my techniques in their cases and unplugged my tv. I put all the Blenko carefully into boxes and took my portrait of JFK off the wall. This computer I am writing on is sitting on an empty desk in and empty room that was once so full....so full of light and love and warmth. This room that so such good times is now a void. It bounces all the spite right back at me. It's my fault. I am self destructive. I've poisoned everything. I am pushing away the best thing to ever happen to me and I dont know why or how to stop it. I guess I am just weak. I guess I am just not ready to take control of my life. Whatever the reason, I feel hollow and unable to sustain any kind of relationships at all right now- Lover, Friend or Foe.
Where did that chopper go? Take me with you. Please.
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badm0j02:
thanks for the invite!! That was a cool show. I have a new secondary crush.....its a tie between the Fliplet & the singer from that band. heh....sorry they both have to be secondary but...well, you know who i dig da most. 
penelope:
It was good to see the little of you that I did. Clubs are not good for actually doing any conversing, but I did enjoy meeting your fliplet (btw been meaning to ask: What is a fliplet, I mean other than a sexy sexy beast?) and I enjoyed seeing you. See you tomorrow night?