_william_

actually this is one of my earliest memories.

i lived in brooklyn till i was one and a half years old, and the only thing i remember about it is that the skies were red, from all the lights, at night.

when we moved upstate, i noticed that at night the skies were purple, due to less unnatural light.

i think that the night skies are probably my earliest memory.

the stars seemed lower/louder.

i can't help it i like you too much

and just remember:

life's short and hard like a body building elf.

*gives boots some sweet loving*

hmm you edited your journal while i was typing.

i punish god . . . i punish god by not believing in him/her/it and being truely happy.

is that punishment? i'm not sure.

. . . into my living room.

holy shit! don't sneak up on me like that! you scared me!

where am i on your friend's list? wierd.

actually, yesterday was a painful truth telling day. a friend of mine had admitted a while ago to being on love with me for quite some time. since our friendship has spanned almost six years and we connect in ways that are very valuable to me and us, i was not surprised. i had loved him, too, in a romantic way before, but i am very commited to my relationship, even though it is hard sometimes. bottom line is i finally admitted that i required more bounderies between us. i have matured and i don't just let things happen anymore - it could be a good thing or a bad thing. i think its a good thing. at another time i told you that i think the truth is much more interesting. i also don't hold company with people that i don't feel i can be truthful with. since alot of people can't be truthful with themselves, and obviously not to others, this means i don't have many friends. (cat on a hot tin roof - ouch!)

side comment (she's so wordy) i'm not saying i'm better than anyone, even cronic liars, i am only saying that honesty is very important to me and i find it incredibly sexy, although that wasn't the question, was it? sorry.

35 minutes to go on my clock

I recall this interview when everything was fine.

And all those you mentioned should go in the turtle.

hee hee cocktail break

you speak forcefully of posessing things that cannot be owned.

you speak bewitchingly of beings you can't understand.

you have much to learn in the ways of magic

i am autumn.

you have email.

a ripple, more than a wave, but i will do my best to carry you through.

running from revolutionary war soldiars with bayonettes. danger.