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sometimes i think [KNOW] relationships suck.
when its good, its great.
when its bad, all you want to do is turn into a dirty little emo and cry.
i think im not good at adapting to change, im not good with lies.
i hate lying- when you love someone so much, why lie? the truth can hurt but the fact that you lied hurt even more.
i think ben and i can make it through- it feels weird, because it hurts to think of everything thats happening between us at the moment, but i think we can build up the trust again.

if ben cheated on me, id leave him in a second, thank god it wasnt that bad.

it all takes time to get over the hurt, i just wish i had a magic button for feelings that said 'OFF'.

so thats my emo emo emo rant about my poor feelings.
but life is good, and im getting my half sleeve started next friday!!! woot. so excited. oh and a week off work.
holidays. i love hoidays.