_tesko

hello, my loves!

sorry it's been so long since my last update, i have been so busy:

: there was a boy, but we broke up, got back together, and broke up again. things are still weird, but i refuse to let go of this friendship.

: my best friend from orlando (amanda) came to visit. we had such a good (albeit short) time. i wish i could see her more often.

: i talk to carlee (my chicago best friend) twice a week or so. she's pretty much essential to me not losing my mind.

: i've been sewing again, it relaxes me.

: i have a job, and i love it.

: i posted two new pictures. you should look at them.

: on monday i started a new form of therapy for my back. to put it plainly, they give me lots of painkillers, strap me to a table which pulls my head away from my torso, separating my vertebra to allow my discs to properly align.

it's just as scary as it sounds.

: being heavily medicated makes me nicer. it's pretty hard to irrationally hate people/things when i'm taking my baclofen.

: i met a new boy, but i refuse to allow the situation to get romantic as quickly as i usually do. i don't want to keep fucking this up.

: i need to burn a few bridges, i've been putting it off, because i hate letting go of people i've become attached to, but they need to go.

: i need to rebuild a few bridges too. i didn't burn these, i just let them fall into a terrible state of disrepair. i'm gonna go clean them up.

: i've built new bridges too! i've made new friends and learned more about the ones i've already got.

: i'm changing my life. i'm sick of the way thing are and, since no one can change my life better than i can, i'm taking control. this is my life, and i'm gonna go live it.