i get drunk at the bar. it's my thursday ritual. last night was no exception.
one of my friends also gets drunk at the bar every thursday. she also has a huge crush on me, which is awesome, except that i'm still not over the boy and even if i were, i'm not 100% sure i'm ready to date a chick.
speaking of the boy: i thought i was over him, really, i did; but today, at work, he kept talking about how "smokin hot" some of his ex's were, and it made me feel like i wasn't as pretty as those girls, and thats part of why he got over me so fast.
i hate how insecure i let him make me feel.
speaking of insecure: i hate that some chicks can be unattractive, cheating whores and the most amazing, genuine guy will love them far more than they deserve; but i'm not hideous, or a cheating whore, and i've had nothing but shitty boyfriends.
moving on...
i need to change. i need to get my shit together. i'm so tired of being sad and pouty and emo all the time.
i love me. you should too.
in other news...
i'm so far beyond ready to shoot my first set, i feeli like i'm gonna explode! it should not be so hard to find someone to take some spectacular nakie pictures of me. i really wish AlissaBrunelli weren't so busy. i'd love to get nakie for her! oh well, the hunt for a photographer continues...
hearts and stars,
ashley
ps.-- does anyone know what happened to TikkiMonster? he just went gray all of a sudden. hmmm...
one of my friends also gets drunk at the bar every thursday. she also has a huge crush on me, which is awesome, except that i'm still not over the boy and even if i were, i'm not 100% sure i'm ready to date a chick.
speaking of the boy: i thought i was over him, really, i did; but today, at work, he kept talking about how "smokin hot" some of his ex's were, and it made me feel like i wasn't as pretty as those girls, and thats part of why he got over me so fast.
i hate how insecure i let him make me feel.
speaking of insecure: i hate that some chicks can be unattractive, cheating whores and the most amazing, genuine guy will love them far more than they deserve; but i'm not hideous, or a cheating whore, and i've had nothing but shitty boyfriends.
moving on...
i need to change. i need to get my shit together. i'm so tired of being sad and pouty and emo all the time.
i love me. you should too.
in other news...
i'm so far beyond ready to shoot my first set, i feeli like i'm gonna explode! it should not be so hard to find someone to take some spectacular nakie pictures of me. i really wish AlissaBrunelli weren't so busy. i'd love to get nakie for her! oh well, the hunt for a photographer continues...
hearts and stars,
ashley
ps.-- does anyone know what happened to TikkiMonster? he just went gray all of a sudden. hmmm...
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candykydfairy:
ooohh...too bad i wasn't there thursday....cuz i just want to make out with you,not date you 
...hehehe...i'm just kiddin babe..you're wonderful & you should know that...and the only reason that boy talks in such ways is that he's tryin to convince himself he's over you when he's clearly not...that's what i think anyways...cuz he'd be stupid if he truly were 
and yes...we both need to move beyond sad pandaness & realize how awesome we are....and be awesome together soon 
...hehehe...i'm just kiddin babe..you're wonderful & you should know that...and the only reason that boy talks in such ways is that he's tryin to convince himself he's over you when he's clearly not...that's what i think anyways...cuz he'd be stupid if he truly were and yes...we both need to move beyond sad pandaness & realize how awesome we are....and be awesome together soon 
punknitemike:
you are awesome, you should know that! lets hang out sometime!!! stop letting those boys get ya all down, you don't deserve that! and its their loss, not yours!!!