So the last three posts I wrote a week ago while I was tripping on mushrooms.... so yeah, god only knows.
I have finals this week for my summer session and I am not looking forward to all the work I have to do, especially since I really should be doing it right this second.
work sucks, my boss has issues with being stressed out. She seems to get overly stressed easily and on top of that she doesn't seem to know how to not take it out on everyone around her. Seeing as I'm new and still trying to figure out what the fuck I'm doing I cause a few problems that she needs to then come over and fix. That's what her job is, that's what she is there for, she doesn't need to make me feel like shit every time it happens. all that does is make me not want to ask her for help when something happens and sometimes that just makes an even bigger mess. on top of that I'm not getting any hours. when I was hired I explained my school schedule but that I would still like at LEAST 20 hours a week. I was told this was possible. Unfortunately she didn't hire me so I guess all bets are off. Last week I got 10 hours, this week I got 8.5, next week I get 10 and the week after I get 3... the weeks that are the least I DID ask for time off but even on the weeks that I didn't I'm still getting half of what I asked be the LEAST I was scheduled. I just don't see why I was hired if they are not able to give me the hours I have asked for. arrggghhhh!!! I keep telling myself this is still SO much better then my last job but that doesn't really help when the bills start piling up, its just a whole other issue all together.
on that note my energy bill went from 50 some to 122, how bout yours?
My boyfriends 21st birthday was on the 27th and I spent a riveting 4 hours sitting in a bar or two playing my game boy and drinking diet coke... fun was not had, by me anyway.
Today we went out to dinner with his family as is their custom... his mother is aware of the fact that I am now going to school and working at the movie store which means he is paying all the bills... this, apparently, makes me a mooching piece of shit. she doesn't come out and say it but i can taste the contempt. It doesn't matter that this is what he WANTED me to do. It doesn't matter that this was HIS choice. He doesn't understand why I get so offended by her since I don't really give a fuck what she has to say but I resent the fact that she has to voice her opinion about every aspect of our lives.
We had been talking for a long time about buying our own house and renting rooms to our friends to help pay the mortgage but we don't have any sort of down payment yet so that's still more of a "someday" thing. Tonight we were talking about how we need to decide whether or not to sign a new lease on this apartment and his sister pipes up "we should just buy a house and you guys can rent from us!" I said to her "no Jamie, that wont work, we don't want to rent." she started to argue and I said again "no, you don't understand, It wont work because WE want to own the house and do the same thing. we don't want to be the renters in someone else's house." His mom then had to chime in that we can't even THINK of applying for a loan until we both have full time jobs. I understand that she has owned a house for 20 years and thinks this makes her an expert on mortgages but seeing as I worked for a mortgage company for a YEAR and she signed her mortgage two decades ago I think I have a bit better an idea of just what is possible. since I most likely will not have a full time job till I am done with school in AT LEAST four years one would hope that by that time Matt will be making enough money for us to get a house. I just don't understand why she, A SINGLE MOTHER, would think that we both need full time jobs to get a house!!! aaaarrrgh!!! I could go on but I won't...
As for my own mother, she works for NWA as a flight attendant. After some 27 years on the job she may end up like Matt's soon to be step dad who was a mechanic for the same company, out on her ass with no marketable skills. Its so depressing I don't really want to talk about it anymore, so I wont.
sorry about all the bitching, I just needed someone to talk to.
I have finals this week for my summer session and I am not looking forward to all the work I have to do, especially since I really should be doing it right this second.
work sucks, my boss has issues with being stressed out. She seems to get overly stressed easily and on top of that she doesn't seem to know how to not take it out on everyone around her. Seeing as I'm new and still trying to figure out what the fuck I'm doing I cause a few problems that she needs to then come over and fix. That's what her job is, that's what she is there for, she doesn't need to make me feel like shit every time it happens. all that does is make me not want to ask her for help when something happens and sometimes that just makes an even bigger mess. on top of that I'm not getting any hours. when I was hired I explained my school schedule but that I would still like at LEAST 20 hours a week. I was told this was possible. Unfortunately she didn't hire me so I guess all bets are off. Last week I got 10 hours, this week I got 8.5, next week I get 10 and the week after I get 3... the weeks that are the least I DID ask for time off but even on the weeks that I didn't I'm still getting half of what I asked be the LEAST I was scheduled. I just don't see why I was hired if they are not able to give me the hours I have asked for. arrggghhhh!!! I keep telling myself this is still SO much better then my last job but that doesn't really help when the bills start piling up, its just a whole other issue all together.
on that note my energy bill went from 50 some to 122, how bout yours?
My boyfriends 21st birthday was on the 27th and I spent a riveting 4 hours sitting in a bar or two playing my game boy and drinking diet coke... fun was not had, by me anyway.
Today we went out to dinner with his family as is their custom... his mother is aware of the fact that I am now going to school and working at the movie store which means he is paying all the bills... this, apparently, makes me a mooching piece of shit. she doesn't come out and say it but i can taste the contempt. It doesn't matter that this is what he WANTED me to do. It doesn't matter that this was HIS choice. He doesn't understand why I get so offended by her since I don't really give a fuck what she has to say but I resent the fact that she has to voice her opinion about every aspect of our lives.
We had been talking for a long time about buying our own house and renting rooms to our friends to help pay the mortgage but we don't have any sort of down payment yet so that's still more of a "someday" thing. Tonight we were talking about how we need to decide whether or not to sign a new lease on this apartment and his sister pipes up "we should just buy a house and you guys can rent from us!" I said to her "no Jamie, that wont work, we don't want to rent." she started to argue and I said again "no, you don't understand, It wont work because WE want to own the house and do the same thing. we don't want to be the renters in someone else's house." His mom then had to chime in that we can't even THINK of applying for a loan until we both have full time jobs. I understand that she has owned a house for 20 years and thinks this makes her an expert on mortgages but seeing as I worked for a mortgage company for a YEAR and she signed her mortgage two decades ago I think I have a bit better an idea of just what is possible. since I most likely will not have a full time job till I am done with school in AT LEAST four years one would hope that by that time Matt will be making enough money for us to get a house. I just don't understand why she, A SINGLE MOTHER, would think that we both need full time jobs to get a house!!! aaaarrrgh!!! I could go on but I won't...
As for my own mother, she works for NWA as a flight attendant. After some 27 years on the job she may end up like Matt's soon to be step dad who was a mechanic for the same company, out on her ass with no marketable skills. Its so depressing I don't really want to talk about it anymore, so I wont.
sorry about all the bitching, I just needed someone to talk to.
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Cheer up.
-TM