well, I didn't want to update because my last post seems to have been all pimp and such... seeing as 3 out of 4 of the responses were from suicide girls themselves I think the post was good fortune or somethin! well... much has changed recently, my distain for love in general diminished greatly... seeing as the one girl who made it single-handedly very, well... distainable.... by walking out of my life and 6 years of friendship has now, after 2 years of roughly no contact walked right back in and fixed it. Granted, it is a now a healing friendship and nothing more and that's all I could possibly ask of, the outcome of the situation is unforeseeable and I'm actually comfortable with that.
and now for something completely different!
while I know a lot of people disagree with my theories about how life revolves around the want for social interaction, which keep in mind was just that... a want, not a necessity by any means. as humans we've devolved more so and more so and became dependent upon "love" and "attention" from our species and without it we cannot live. We are much like ants following a hive mind algorithm of do this and do that's. I guess I gave up fighting it, so more or less heres my point... what makes a person good at heart? I know I'm a zombie like the rest but I want to know I used my time with as much respect and admiration to everyone and everything that I could... that would make me feel, that YES maybe I gave it, but maybe I made it a little less hard on those who gave in with me. SO, I thought to myself, honestly, 100%... have I made peoples lives worse or better in anyway... sure I've done fucked up things but the nice things outweigh them buy a mass amount... to be honest, it barely did.... I just about broke even... I know I'm not the best judge of it but damn.... I have to do something.
I suggest you ask yourself, how many lives you've withered, spit upon, and moved on, compared to how many you excepted, embraced and fought for. you might stop yourself from doing it again.
thanks for reading.
and now for something completely different!
while I know a lot of people disagree with my theories about how life revolves around the want for social interaction, which keep in mind was just that... a want, not a necessity by any means. as humans we've devolved more so and more so and became dependent upon "love" and "attention" from our species and without it we cannot live. We are much like ants following a hive mind algorithm of do this and do that's. I guess I gave up fighting it, so more or less heres my point... what makes a person good at heart? I know I'm a zombie like the rest but I want to know I used my time with as much respect and admiration to everyone and everything that I could... that would make me feel, that YES maybe I gave it, but maybe I made it a little less hard on those who gave in with me. SO, I thought to myself, honestly, 100%... have I made peoples lives worse or better in anyway... sure I've done fucked up things but the nice things outweigh them buy a mass amount... to be honest, it barely did.... I just about broke even... I know I'm not the best judge of it but damn.... I have to do something.
I suggest you ask yourself, how many lives you've withered, spit upon, and moved on, compared to how many you excepted, embraced and fought for. you might stop yourself from doing it again.
thanks for reading.
Love and Peace