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hey everyone I was asked to put up some of my poetry so heres some hope you enjoy









Why did you hurt me like you did
Why when I was just a little kid
Why did you beat me
Why didnt you ever let me grow
Why did you leave me all alone
Why did you say you hated me the last night we talked on the phone
Why did you not love me
Why did you only judge me
Why did treat me like you did
Why did you say I wasn't your kid
Why did you make me feel so bad
Why did you always lie about me to dad
Why did you always try to make me look bad
Why did you always take it out on me
Why did you take me in
Why did you pretend to be my friend
Why mom I was only 10

I'll never undertsand the things you did too me but I still love you and I really need you here with me I need to tell you how I'm hurting and how I miss you so I need to tell you that I'm sorry why did you have to go I never thought you'd leave me like this I never knew it was only you I truly miss I want to be your baby girl I want to be with you I hurt so bad right now mom I'm really missing you I want you back with me and dad maybe then I won't be so sad if I could go back in time I'd tell you I loved you and I'm sorry about it all but right now mom I'm boucing off the walls I want to live I want to die I don't even know anymore who am I I want to be with you right now I want you to rock me and hold me close but most of all right now mom I wish you weren't a ghost
















've cried so many tears

And am now drowning in my pain

I've made so many bad choices

And now, my actions, I need to explain

I've stooped real low

And the truth I tried to hide

I've hurt many people

And my worlds now collide

I should've opened up

And told how I truly felt

I should've not tried hiding

And handled the situation I've been dealt

I should've spoke my mind

And not been so curt

I should've opened up more

And so many wouldn't be hurt

Yet now I have to pay

For the lack of thinking on my part

Yet now I have to fix what's wrong

For the whole that's in my heart
















WHY THE FUCK DID I THINK YOU WERE THERE
WHY THE FUCK DID I THINK YOU CARED
BOY WAS I TOTALLY MISTAKEN
I CANT BELIEVE THE TIME IT HAS TAKEN
FOR ME TO REALISE THAT I WAS ALL ALONE
THAT YOUR HEART WAS MADE OF STONE
EVERYTHING I TOLD YOU I COMPLETLY DREAD
NOW YOU'VE DRAINED ME AND LEFT ME FOR DEAD
WOULD YOU EVEN CARE IF I DIED
KNOWING HOW I FELT INSIDE
KNOWING THAT I COULDNT COPE
AND ME SAYING DYING IS MY ONLY HOPE
I THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE THERE FOR ME
AND I TRUSED YOU COMPLETLY
BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE IVE LOST MY MIND
IVE KEPT MY FEELING ALL CONFINED
IS DYING AN EASY WAY OUT
I KNOW IT IS WITHOUT A DOUBT
BUT IS THERE ANOTHER WAY
TO MAKE IT ALL BE OKAY
IF I TOOK MY LIFE WOULD IT BE RIGHT
IM NOT TO SURE BUT I JUST MIGHT
I CANT DEAL WITH ALL THIS STUFF
ITS TO LATE I HAVE HAD ENOUGH
IM HOLDING THE BLADE IN MY HAND
ITS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE THIS LAND
AS I HOLD OUT MY WRIST
I WONDER IF I WILL BE MISSED
THEN AS THE BLADE STARTS FALLING DOWN
MY SORROWS SLOWLY DROWN
MY BLOOD, IT DRIPS ONTO THE FLOOR
I COULD'NT TAKE IT ANYMORE
MY LIFE WAS TRAGICALLY CUT SHORT
BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS MY LAST RESORT


















You said it wasnt going to work out and that you didnt want to shout

I said this isnt fair and that i still care

You said that it wasnt working out and that you didnt want to lay about

I said whats wrong and you just turned up the song

You said you can no longer feel and that its not a big deal

I said that i still care for you, that i swear its true

You said that we will still be friends and that we can make amends

I say that i cant live without you and that you have no clue

You say it just cant be and that its not because of me

I say my life wont be the same without me saying your name

You say its over and to move over

I say i cant live without you and that it should always be us two

You said leave me alone and then all i heard was the tone

















What do you do when the rumors are all true

When the way people talk is killing you

When painful fact is tearing you apart

Why can't duct-tape fix a broken heart?

When you can't take the peircing soul-felt pain

When your guilty concience is driving you insane

When the thing that hurts the most is the truth

When your scornfully labeled as "troubled youth"

And the truth is, as I'll bluntly tell

Yeah the truth is adolescence is hell















Tonight I cry

And everything starts over

It feels like years have passed

And I thought I was healed

But no it isn't so

I am craving once more

For love and hugs, nothing more

And I pray to God to help.


I cry because I am scared

Scared that I will fall again

In this abyss in which I had been trapped

I cry because I am desperate

Because I am all alone

Because I have never been loved

Because even my friends ignore who I am

And I pray to God to help me

And I know he is there

But it is not enough.


And I cry because I am weak and small

And I don't want to grow up

And I wish someone could save my life

And I wish it were a song

But no it isn't so.


As I lie here in my bed no one knows what I'm doing. No one knows that my poem is broken because my life is. No one knows that beneath my perpetual smile I am in pain. And know one cares. Because today we are alone in this world and it is hard to find someone who will listen to you. And it's even harder when you're different, when at heart you're a child and a witch and an artist, and no one understands artists.


And I cry because I realize

I can't go on like this

But as my pen fills a page

I grow stronger

Because I know that I cried tonight

But tomorrow I won't.
















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"Baby when I die
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Don't waste your tears nd cry
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For my heart can't handle your tears
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It would kill me inside .
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When I die, don't blame me
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It was fate; no choice in hands
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I would rather stay alive
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Please baby don't cry
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My heart is forever yours
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Let me rest in peace
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Nd spare me your tears
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I love you sweetheart plz don't cry"
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I shall sweep you with my tears
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Rip my heart off nd let u live in peace
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For my love for you isn't like a feast
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Once it's done; it just disappear
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Baby, I love you nd u wont be in peace
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You left me alone, only with my tears
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My only companion which took my suffering on ease
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Baby, you left me alone, only with my tears
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A broken heart lost dreams,,,,
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I shall shed my tears for you
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For my love for you isn't a feast
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I urge for your touch
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For the warmth of ur hugs
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For the sweetness of ur smell
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For one last kiss .
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Till I can own the world again
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When we both are united
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In love miracles can happen
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Just a bunch lies that is
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Where is my love
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Y aint he in my sight
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I yearn for to see your face
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Once again see that smile .
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Which can melt my pain away
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You want me to walk away .
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Nd start a life like u never been there
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Let u rest in peace you say,
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Rip my heart off
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Blind me from what I see
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That's the only way
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To take your love on ease
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Come see my bleeding heart
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Then ask me to leave
















I found a part of me that I didn't know was there.
I wasted my life away thinking no one cared.
And now that my end draws to a close.
I see my parting will cause some people woes.
I really don't want it to end but I need it to.
The last few years I've really felt blue.
Everyone thinks I'm immature and heartless but that's not me.
I hide my suffering and depression with happiness and glee.
When I did find happiness and had my depression taken away.
It was ripped away by a stupid little fray.
Now that this has happened I feel even worst.
And to that little bitch I give you my curse.
And to the person that gave me happiness I give you my soul.
So this unhappy ending will never have to be told.
So goodbye to world goodbye to it all.
And don't stop what you're doing when my blood starts to fall.




















CUTTING

I do it not because I can't handle life

I do it not because I'm depressed

I do it not because I like to forget

Or to make life eaiser

I do it becuase it brings me to a place

Where old memories come back

Where they aren't as painful

I can fly and breathe

Like every moment I used to

Sure, I did start it to forget

Stupid? hell yeah

Painful the next day? yeah

But I'll do anyhting to feel they way I use to

They way before you