I usually love this time of year. Today is bonfire night and i usually adore bonfire night. Back garden fireworks that all look the same, rockets that fire sideways and nearly take your head off, millions of packets of sparklers that were left over from the shop, stew with pickled cabbage and treacle toffee that nearly pulls your teeth out. But this year i feel different. I hear the fireworks going off outside and i'm jealous. Families together enjoying their fireworks, laughing, joking.
I don't even know why i'm jealous and sad like i've lost something. My family suck... plain and simple. My mum is a bitch who shouldn't of been allowed to have children...but i won't waffle about that now, I don't talk to her anymore and I doubt she even cares. My dad just isn't my dad anymore...he's lazy, drunk and stupid...what happened to my dad, i have no idea.
I don't even know why this upsets me anymore. I don't want to talk to my mother and my dad just annoys me or uses me to ask about my brother...is it so hard just to have an interest in me?
So i suppose i am jealous because i want a fun bonfire night. To laugh and be loved...but no i'm sat alone with fuck all to do, feeling miserable. I can't even go out even if i want to.
Lab sucked...they give unreasonable amounts of work in the time so you are rushed off your feet. I've got 6 tonnes of writeup to do that i probably won't be able to answer because the lab is so unrelated to the lectures, plus you don't have time to ask for help as you are too busy trying to do the experiment.
Also i have a lit. project to do that has a heavy percentage on referencing. We each got supervisors and my friends got different ones from me. They each got a tonne of work and stuff to look through for their references so it's going to be so easy for them. My supervisor gives me one name to look up and no help! I've looked and can find fuck all references. I emailed him one wednesday and he hasn't replied! I am so annoyed! I don't have time to waste and i needed to get a big chunk of the project done this weekend! I just want to cry
Thanks for listening
I don't even know why i'm jealous and sad like i've lost something. My family suck... plain and simple. My mum is a bitch who shouldn't of been allowed to have children...but i won't waffle about that now, I don't talk to her anymore and I doubt she even cares. My dad just isn't my dad anymore...he's lazy, drunk and stupid...what happened to my dad, i have no idea.
I don't even know why this upsets me anymore. I don't want to talk to my mother and my dad just annoys me or uses me to ask about my brother...is it so hard just to have an interest in me?
So i suppose i am jealous because i want a fun bonfire night. To laugh and be loved...but no i'm sat alone with fuck all to do, feeling miserable. I can't even go out even if i want to.
Lab sucked...they give unreasonable amounts of work in the time so you are rushed off your feet. I've got 6 tonnes of writeup to do that i probably won't be able to answer because the lab is so unrelated to the lectures, plus you don't have time to ask for help as you are too busy trying to do the experiment.
Also i have a lit. project to do that has a heavy percentage on referencing. We each got supervisors and my friends got different ones from me. They each got a tonne of work and stuff to look through for their references so it's going to be so easy for them. My supervisor gives me one name to look up and no help! I've looked and can find fuck all references. I emailed him one wednesday and he hasn't replied! I am so annoyed! I don't have time to waste and i needed to get a big chunk of the project done this weekend! I just want to cry
Thanks for listening
also, i think your supervisor needs to get hir bottom in gear! your work sounds hard, i would suck at a stupidly intelligent subject like yours. all respect to you
have a good weekend
i just read your fantasy, and i have this book.....Tokyo a certain style....that i think you would love. its a photo book that is all pictures of the insides of peoples apartments in japan. it shows the different ways people live over there. i love it. heres a link to it on amazon.com.....Tokyo: A Certain Style
oh and hi!