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Well I am back at my parents house for a week or 2. I had forgotten just how fucked in the head these two people are. My alcoholic bitch of a mother hasnt said one pleasent word to me since I came down here on thursday. Everything has to be turned into a confrontation with her. My dad was cool for the first 3 days while my mom and sister were doing something in Florida, but today he did a complete 180 on me and started bitching and gettin all upset because he doesnt understand how he "can care about (me) so much and (I) can care so little about him". Keep in mind that this is coming from the same man that has not given my one bit of fatherly love in at least 16 years, not even a happy birthday in the last 10 years. All I did was fall asleep and not answer his phone call. Now he has gone in his room, crying, and shut the door. WTF! This is worse than when my ex started taking birth control and turned into a moodswingy pshcotic. Oh well I guess nothing has changed. I am just glad that I was adopted, so none of these characteristics were genetically inherited.


On the brighter side, I have seen a lot of my friends while I have been down here. Not too many of them have been arrested, killed, or knocked up in the last 3 years, so I guess everything is good there. I am here to make some $$ for the move to CA, but I am starting to wonder if the $$ is worth all the bullshit and drama that this place stirs up. Fuckit, I guess I will tough it out a little bit and see how things go. I refuse to let my family make me as unhappy as I was before I left. Those were some dark days, and I see them slowly coming back. Wish me luck, or shoot me and get it over with.