Okay,
so it's been a couple of months since I've blogged, but in my defence it's been a couple of months since I've done ANYTHING.
This year started on a downer and hasn't gotten any better. Just before Christmas, I stupidly stopped taking my anti-psychotic meds and went a bit manic, and frightened off the girl I was sort of seeing, who was the best thing that's happened to me in ages. I had intended to start afresh this year and have a good one, but appropriately fell asleep at 8pm and woke up at 5 to midnight with all my friends out and about.
So far this year, I've seen like 2 of my friends and not been out socialising once. I haven't even bothered to update my facebook status since January.
Basically everything's been getting on top of me a bit. I'm completely broke - no work, no money, I owe my landladies 2500. My website's expired, my email's expired, my work membership expired, my phone's been cut off, my bank account's been frozen... and so on. On top of that, I moved house to stop my debt getting any bigger and I'm living in a place on my own so spending all my time alone. Blaaaah.
Maybe it's just that time of year, I dunno.
Hoping things are going to start looking up soon. I'm going to the cinema with that girl tomorrow, first social outing of 2010, with the last 20 I have... But more than anything I'm just hoping I'm gonna start feeling like living again soon.
We'll see.
x
so it's been a couple of months since I've blogged, but in my defence it's been a couple of months since I've done ANYTHING.
This year started on a downer and hasn't gotten any better. Just before Christmas, I stupidly stopped taking my anti-psychotic meds and went a bit manic, and frightened off the girl I was sort of seeing, who was the best thing that's happened to me in ages. I had intended to start afresh this year and have a good one, but appropriately fell asleep at 8pm and woke up at 5 to midnight with all my friends out and about.
So far this year, I've seen like 2 of my friends and not been out socialising once. I haven't even bothered to update my facebook status since January.
Basically everything's been getting on top of me a bit. I'm completely broke - no work, no money, I owe my landladies 2500. My website's expired, my email's expired, my work membership expired, my phone's been cut off, my bank account's been frozen... and so on. On top of that, I moved house to stop my debt getting any bigger and I'm living in a place on my own so spending all my time alone. Blaaaah.
Maybe it's just that time of year, I dunno.
Hoping things are going to start looking up soon. I'm going to the cinema with that girl tomorrow, first social outing of 2010, with the last 20 I have... But more than anything I'm just hoping I'm gonna start feeling like living again soon.
We'll see.
x
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why don't you get yourself some? I find them so nice to have when feeling lonely. i love my little chinese dwarfs! x