My life. I have a lot going on & wanted to wait for a while but I guess I'll leave a blog, getting rid of yesterday's spam blog.
Trying to walk like I talk....
Life is sort of cool... except for the dying part. It's like a design flaw. It makes everything in between almost trivial. Eventually we get that 1000 yard stare, shell shocked from the devastation of reality.... So much so, we miss what's going on right in our laps. We plan for a day that never comes & by the time you realize what you should be doing, you're in a box.
-I go back to Westside Tattoo tomorrow. I'm just setting up my station for next week but it's a start.
-Talked to my Club boss about a schedule change... less time there.
-Stuck to my diet, including NO drinking... & my exercise
-Lost 17lbs in almost 3 weeks... and counting.
-Loaded Craigslist with items that need to be sold. (meaningless material shit. I don't need the money but these things are just things & do not bring happiness, only imprisonment) EBAY is next... This shit has to go.
-Hurt shoulder swimming a couple years ago. Taking legit swimming classes for form. She said I make too broad strokes & is why I got swimmers shoulder. Her technic is better, arm doesn't hurt too bad & I'm faster. I'll probably spend more time open ocean swimming so that we can take a surf vacation to a killer spot I would probably usually drown at. Remember, when my dreads are wet, I'm carrying the equivalent of a soaked industrial mop on the back of my head. I wondered to myself why I would take these lessons, besides strengthening my swimming & I've come up with it being some sort of metaphor or eastern philosophy interpretation for change in my life.
-I remind myself every day that the journey IS the reward. I had to break myself of the habit of the acquisition of money & things & attempt to aim my life more at just experience & living. It seems like we all have plans to do something bigger some day... Someday never comes. That's just a fantasy we are sold as children with our government social conditioning/training/brainwashing to become hard working consumers & the NOW is what's important. I'd be happier with less money if it gives me more time for living. This IS the future. I'll be happy just being what I am & moving to a better place, physically and mentally. People with a lot less money look a lot happier than I feel & I remember being broke & happy myself.
-I'm also planning on moving to St Augustine. Though we live next to it, I'd rather just live there. Jacksonville is too... stupid, ghetto, scenes & ego games upon ego games. St Auggy is laid back & breezy. It has the added bonus of being close enough for me to drive to work. I'd hoped to make this move before a blog but it's taking some time.
-Though the project isn't all together yet, I do have a plan, steps & the moves are in motion to follow through. That's the best I can do.
I need more art in my life... Like it was before. I'd like to actually spend real time with my wife instead of in a constant state of work & bills. I'd like to wake up in the mornings & think I don't ant anything I don't already have have.
This isn't some grand new,"OH finally I see the big picture" kind of shit. I've felt this way since I was a lad. Just attempting to follow through.
I don't know why I typed all this... I sort of want to delete it but whatever.
Trying to walk like I talk....
Life is sort of cool... except for the dying part. It's like a design flaw. It makes everything in between almost trivial. Eventually we get that 1000 yard stare, shell shocked from the devastation of reality.... So much so, we miss what's going on right in our laps. We plan for a day that never comes & by the time you realize what you should be doing, you're in a box.
-I go back to Westside Tattoo tomorrow. I'm just setting up my station for next week but it's a start.
-Talked to my Club boss about a schedule change... less time there.
-Stuck to my diet, including NO drinking... & my exercise
-Lost 17lbs in almost 3 weeks... and counting.
-Loaded Craigslist with items that need to be sold. (meaningless material shit. I don't need the money but these things are just things & do not bring happiness, only imprisonment) EBAY is next... This shit has to go.
-Hurt shoulder swimming a couple years ago. Taking legit swimming classes for form. She said I make too broad strokes & is why I got swimmers shoulder. Her technic is better, arm doesn't hurt too bad & I'm faster. I'll probably spend more time open ocean swimming so that we can take a surf vacation to a killer spot I would probably usually drown at. Remember, when my dreads are wet, I'm carrying the equivalent of a soaked industrial mop on the back of my head. I wondered to myself why I would take these lessons, besides strengthening my swimming & I've come up with it being some sort of metaphor or eastern philosophy interpretation for change in my life.
-I remind myself every day that the journey IS the reward. I had to break myself of the habit of the acquisition of money & things & attempt to aim my life more at just experience & living. It seems like we all have plans to do something bigger some day... Someday never comes. That's just a fantasy we are sold as children with our government social conditioning/training/brainwashing to become hard working consumers & the NOW is what's important. I'd be happier with less money if it gives me more time for living. This IS the future. I'll be happy just being what I am & moving to a better place, physically and mentally. People with a lot less money look a lot happier than I feel & I remember being broke & happy myself.
-I'm also planning on moving to St Augustine. Though we live next to it, I'd rather just live there. Jacksonville is too... stupid, ghetto, scenes & ego games upon ego games. St Auggy is laid back & breezy. It has the added bonus of being close enough for me to drive to work. I'd hoped to make this move before a blog but it's taking some time.
-Though the project isn't all together yet, I do have a plan, steps & the moves are in motion to follow through. That's the best I can do.
I need more art in my life... Like it was before. I'd like to actually spend real time with my wife instead of in a constant state of work & bills. I'd like to wake up in the mornings & think I don't ant anything I don't already have have.
This isn't some grand new,"OH finally I see the big picture" kind of shit. I've felt this way since I was a lad. Just attempting to follow through.
I don't know why I typed all this... I sort of want to delete it but whatever.
Congrats on the new gig, good luck on the new town, and good show on the new life outlook.
Swimming classes . . . interesting. I swam competitively my whole childhood. So I always thought it was second nature. However, recently, with the ridiculous heat, on a couple of days, I thought I'd try to swim laps in lieu of getting up at 5:00 a.m. to run - - especially when it was still 80 degrees at that ungodly hour. However, although I pride myself as being pretty "in shape" I haven't been able to swim more than 100 meters without feeling like I'm going to die. I really don't know how to pace myself and only know how to swim "fast."
Maybe I need some classes . . .