_michael

when I was 14 I dated a 27 year old. The whole experience
was heart-breaking. We dated almost 2 years. I became addicted to
sex...it was a big bad scary mess in the end. I hated him for the last year of it but
continuted on with the sex addiction to the bitter end. I get horny around race bikes
and he was a motorcycle racer...

spared? fuck that...i always get my heart broken.

first time: age 4. dad left home (sorry to be a downer...)

first time romantically: i fell for him in 7th grade. he was a creative genius my age...artisitically gifted and witty as hell. he listened to the cure and hung with some of my friends, but didnt even notice i existed. i was the skinny ugly weird kid who never fit in. i tried in my own strange way to impress him but no dice, so i worshipped him from afar. i never appraoched him directly but wrote him a letter right before leaving virginia for chicago explaining everything thati had felt to that very day. i was 16 by that time. he never wrote back. i still think of him to this day.