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Well now, that day is behind us. Hope my friends are all doing well.

I am doing splendid. Thank you for your concern. My day yesterday was pretty good. I cleaned, and gave myself a mani/pedi. Nothing too out of the ordinary, just another day is Kaytesville I suppose.

This weekend me and my best girl are taking a ride down to Maryland to go to 666irish's beach party at his home. It will be nice to reconnect with some of my SGCharmCity folks.

I am really confused about the issue of kindness and respect as of late. I can be cynical, and I can be snarky..I just don't get it. Why is it cool to be an ass to people you do not know. Christ, why is it ok to be an asshole to people you do know? I mean, there are always logical appropriate reasons for certain matters, but to be a bully for the sake of being a bully, and on a constant regular basis. I hate to say it, but I really hope the glass house comes crashing the hell down on some of these people.

Well the Primary Tuesday looked pretty damned great. Yes we can. March 4th has me a bit uneasy. I may have company with me for that Primary, which would be wonderful.

It is amazing, my mind and my heart right now.. it is a very interesting place to be in. I feel like there is an over abundance of life and adoration in me as of late, like I can touch something and give it life. It is amazing the amount of hope I have breathing within me.

I have been an addict, I have been a victim, a recluse, a drunk, a daughter, an emotional cripple, a leader, a follower. I have never ever been me. I have always thought the world would hate me as much as I hate myself. Now here we are at 26 and I am beginning to really see, that for the last year or so, I have been Kayte, broken, beaten, confused, dejected and lost. I have been Kayte, excited, desired, blissful and content. Yet there is always someone there in my corner. Sometimes more than just someone, a crowd. I am blessed. I have some of the most incredible friends a person could ask for. I took down my walls, and let you in, and you remain, you hold me up when I need it, you make me laugh when I am ready to break. I am growing, and you help me so much.

I have found happy. I have found a link, a spark. I have found a warm place to go at the end of my day. Who knows where this road will lead. I just know that I never run out of things to talk about, there is not a moment that I am not laughing, or sighing, or hungering.