_lauren_

all you sguk members better be vouching for me!

anyway on to more cheerful things -

fuck winter.

fuck the next three months.

fuck the rain.

fuck the cold.

fuck the grey.

fuck waking up and it being dark.

fuck finishing work and it being dark.

fuck work.

fuck caring about what people think. (roll on tuesday and knuckle tattoos! hello being 'unemployable')

fuck it.

fuck being social.

fuck putting in more effort than anyone else.

fuck the fact that i cant stop biting my nails.

fuck stress.

fuck my housemates.

fuck alliance and leicester.

while i'm at it fuck the old scar on my foot that didnt heal very well and is always itchy!

and for the laugh fuck the po po. hahahaha. i'm so gangsta.

on to the important stuff

i cant decided between 'live fast' or 'stay gold' as my knuckle tattoo.
i think i'm favouring 'live fast' as it's so relevent but 'stay gold' has a special place in my heart and would always remind me of a close friend.
opinions?

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

my rage has subsided somewhat now. a good rant always helps.
despite appearances i'm not a naturally happy/cheerful person. it takes alot of effort for me to stay positive and sometimes it slips.

i want to curl up in bed and stay there for 3 days. and then i'll feel better.

things i'm looking forward to

- thursday - left ear scalpeling. dodgerofjam, india and kit will be coming along to take pictures, observe, comfort me and hold my hand
- tuesday - knuckle tattoo day. it's kind of a big deal. love it.
- 30th - the mingers playing at the fenton

rock and roll kids.