_jimmy

worst week in a while.

Woke up at 5am to a call from my mom telling me her husband passed away. We knew he was sick (cancer), but there was hope - he was a strong and otherwise a very healthy man. I didn't know him too well as I didn't spend too much time with him (short visits here and there), but he was great to my mom. Took her everywhere and treated her right. They had 8 good years together (a little more than one year married), the last being very difficult due to the cancer. I feel so horrible right now, not for my loss but for my mom. She lost her first husband (my dad) 23 years ago and finally finds someone that is perefct for her and this shit happens.

So my brother and myself had to drive down as fast (and safely) as possible from London to Montreal that day. We drove up with my aunt (my moms sister) and uncle. The first day was the worst. I couldn't even talk without getting choked up. The good part was that what's left of our family all got together, from Montreal, Toronto, London and Calgary and spent some good time together. Though it would have been nicer under slightly different circumstances.

Though we only spent about 6 in Montreal it feels like I've been gone for weeks. I'm so tired, physically and emotionally. Driving away from my mom almost killed me today, I wish I could have stayed but I have to get back here for work, my house and my animals. Feels like I abandoned her. The good news is in a couple weeks when she's tied up a few loose ends she will come down and stay at her sisters house for a while which is in London only about 15-20 minutes away from where I live.

She's got nothing but time to figure out where to go from here, I just hope she'll be ok.

I feel better just spittin this out for no ne in particular to read. I just needed to get it off my chest.