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I hate going from such an incredible high to such a depressing low.

My girlfriend is mad at me. Again. And I don't even know why.

How come a woman can't just tell you what she wants and then take it without getting angry at you? Why do they make you guess at things and then get mad at you when you get it RIGHT!?!?!

This woman can make me feel more loved than I have ever known. Then she will turn around the next moment and make me feel more depressed, or frustrated, or defeated, or heartbroken than anything else in the world. I swear sometimes she does things to make me mad on purpose. It's like a power trip to her.

I had made a decision a few months ago, that as long as she was willing to try to make this relationship work, then I would not give up on her. But I've come to realize that even though she says she doesn't want to split up, she is also not willing to make any kind of compromise or sacrifice to stay together. On the contrary, I feel that she is sabotaging the relationship. I really wanted to make this last. I really thought that we could be together for a long time and make our life's goals a reality. But it has been nothing more than an uphill battle and she is at the top of the hill throwing boulders down on me. I am done trying to understand her. I've decided that next week, I am going to drive up to her place with all the things she has at my house and finish things up once and for all.

Wish me Luck.