So as life turns out Imma be in the small town for a while...ughhh kinda hate that
Its just like a feeling I dread because it seems like it always happens.
But hopefully its all meant to be right? And the fiance decided not to take
the job he was looking at...Which is really stressful but at least he wont be gone for six months.
He also decided the other day that he wants to push our wedding date up,
That stressed me out like crazy, I mean I love him to death but I dont think he
really understands how much time, money and effort it takes to plan something like a wedding.
So I been trying to get him more involved, so he can look at it all realistically.
But of course hes far too busy/tired/sick lately to even think about wedding stuff
I been okay, slammed with homework, but at least it keeps my mind off most of the
other stuff, which is good, cause I know I get pretty negative sometimes
Im working on it though...
Life is good, but because this is my blog Imma vent for a while
So the fiance also said that he'd like to abstain from any sexual stuff until the wedding
which is fine, except I dont know if he is being realistic about a timeline here, I mean
from the way he talks he is thinking a couple months, and in all honesty its not like
we have been getting alot of nooky as is, but I still feel like he is just not giving me what I want.
I know that sounds bad, and I dont think he is trying to hold back, but
He just doesnt treat me like he used to, its like around my family he has this phobia of me...
and I feel like every guy Ive ever been with develops this crazy behavior.
Its like my parents are so intimidating they turn all my bad boys into good little church boys,
which one is a major turn off, and two drives me insane! Who wants to be with someone
who is only goody two shoes all the time?!?!? That was me for so long and it was SO BORING!
Im not asking for him to throw me on the counter and fuck me at the dinner table, but come on an ass slap
or neck bite every once in a while wouldnt kill him. But on the flip side I feel bad
cause I know he is trying to juggle pleasing me and the parents, and he is already stressed out bout all this.
And I think he feels like I am never happy with him, but I am, so happy in fact that I just want some alone time so I can have all his attention.... Idk I feel bad wanting more, but that doesnt make me want it any less....
Its just like a feeling I dread because it seems like it always happens.
But hopefully its all meant to be right? And the fiance decided not to take
the job he was looking at...Which is really stressful but at least he wont be gone for six months.
He also decided the other day that he wants to push our wedding date up,
That stressed me out like crazy, I mean I love him to death but I dont think he
really understands how much time, money and effort it takes to plan something like a wedding.
So I been trying to get him more involved, so he can look at it all realistically.
But of course hes far too busy/tired/sick lately to even think about wedding stuff
I been okay, slammed with homework, but at least it keeps my mind off most of the
other stuff, which is good, cause I know I get pretty negative sometimes
Im working on it though...
Life is good, but because this is my blog Imma vent for a while
So the fiance also said that he'd like to abstain from any sexual stuff until the wedding
which is fine, except I dont know if he is being realistic about a timeline here, I mean
from the way he talks he is thinking a couple months, and in all honesty its not like
we have been getting alot of nooky as is, but I still feel like he is just not giving me what I want.
I know that sounds bad, and I dont think he is trying to hold back, but
He just doesnt treat me like he used to, its like around my family he has this phobia of me...
and I feel like every guy Ive ever been with develops this crazy behavior.
Its like my parents are so intimidating they turn all my bad boys into good little church boys,
which one is a major turn off, and two drives me insane! Who wants to be with someone
who is only goody two shoes all the time?!?!? That was me for so long and it was SO BORING!
Im not asking for him to throw me on the counter and fuck me at the dinner table, but come on an ass slap
or neck bite every once in a while wouldnt kill him. But on the flip side I feel bad
cause I know he is trying to juggle pleasing me and the parents, and he is already stressed out bout all this.
And I think he feels like I am never happy with him, but I am, so happy in fact that I just want some alone time so I can have all his attention.... Idk I feel bad wanting more, but that doesnt make me want it any less....
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I'd be having a talk with your man, keep the communication open and let him know your opinion. Good luck.