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So today whatever,
bf asked if i was possibly bi-polar. says its because i have crazy mood swings.
i tried to tell him i think its this bc im on. he said stop telling me excuses.

i feel like shit.

a random stranger told me i smoking hot, and gorgeous.
biggest smile/first smile all day.

i wish i knew how to fix all my issues but i dont and while i work on them
people should just fucking be patient and love me through it.

thats what i do... i just still say, i love you.

i mean if its frustrating for you watching me have mood swings, imagine how its feels to me
the person they are happening to, the person who feels like they have no control over them.
honestly.
im.still.trying. and thats all that matters.

going to get coffee, praying i get some hw accompliushed. and eventually
plan on making more yummy thai food.

peace.love.coffee.