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So after the last post, all your great words of advice, some time to think about it all and a great cosmo followed by coffee...I've decided that you guys are right, its hard when you suddenly become aware of the issues in your your own, but I think it goes even further than that. After you become aware is when the work starts, and when people who value intrinsic worth really start to see what they have to work with, a finally realizing at the moment your just a clump of unformed clay. But your potential only starts when you realize you must start shaving tiny piece away. So I have determined to do just that, to start trying to be that person I so desire, by actively and forcefully acting and behaving as she would.

• I will try to be more independent and self-reliant
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  I will not feel guilty for not being able to please every person I come in contact with


• I will choose choices that purposefully benefit myself (this is probably my hardest one) (i hate choosing, then you might accidentally choose the wrong thing and make someone upset.... see item two :/ lol)


• I will tell my boyfriend when he can't spend money, like when we cant afford it


• I will do what I want during sex, in order to pleases myself and assure that what I want happens


• I will discover my more sexual side and will not feel slutty, when I act on it in the everyday world


• And I will buy/eat/shop for those things that make me happy, cause me being happy is important!

P.S. We also went to the crab pot! Yummy!!