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Invisible.
Worthless.
All i want is to be loved in return.
Steve doesnt give a flying fuck about my exsistance.
I dont understand where the feeling went for him.
He watched me from afar for a year while i had a boyfriend, and when we first got together i was the bee's fucking knee's in his eyes.
what hurts even more is that i know people fall out of love, and there isnt anything you can do about it.

The end of the year went down hill.
My studies got me stressed out. I did well, but only just.
i started smoking pot more heavily.
and eating less.

Christmas was wonderful though.

Todays a down day, tomorow might be up.

Some days i dont want to be alive anymore, i think about how to do it.

Other days all i want to do is be live, smile, breathe and be around people.

I thought i was finally grasping the world, but its secrets and truths have evaded me one more.
thus is life.

i love you all.